the Dawn Science.com section has always been an old favorite of mine. from reading the comic strip to the nifty little bits of info that you keep finding in it. my objective in life in Philips used to be to get one of the nifty new gadgets featured on the last page. life was good.
i miss simplicity sometimes. its become a victim of verbosity and procrastination. i always thought "lack of time" led to simplification. thats apprently not true. i also thought the higher you went in the corporate ladder the detail orientation was supposed to be laid to rest and the strategic hat was supposed to be plonked on. Thats also apparently not true. in fact in 9 cases out of ten most people are expected to switch between both roles frequently and without displaying any issues :)
now thats corporate utopia.. atleast from a higher management perspective :)
somehow sometimes i keep thinking back to "The Water Babies" and how the kids got turned into a field of cabbages popping everywhere because their minds got overloaded with school work and no play... IS SOMEONE LISTENING OUT THERE??!!
I think i'm going to gift copies of that book to everyone in the workplace with highlighted paragraphs for extra emphasis :)
Just read on msn gossip that brad gave angelina a ring.. at some point in time im sure i would have said "mera number kab aye ga".. but thankfully im over that phase now.. he's started looking old.. you know what i mean.. Angelina on the other hand is a whole different ball game.. by the paparrazzi estimation this tryst should last all of 5 years before running into a road block. i think they have a fair chance of making it.. provided they are understanding and forgiving.. which was probably not the case with Jen.
brrrr... its scary.. these western relationships..
Lahore is coooold these days. Each morning its a struggle to pull myself out of bed and now i've taken to the traditional method of flipping a coin to see whether or not i need to shower.. i usually win :)
The good thing is that there arent any BO issues.. i have all the sympathy in the world for poeple with those... winters must be mondo tough for them.. yikes..
just found another great site.. for all you people who like reading classic amazing beautiful books that makes childhood worth living go to Page by Page Books.com. Thats where i found water babies by charles kingley and now also Anne of Green Gables by LM Montgomery..
i still remember this one. i read the first chapter or the day she goes to school and gilbert calls her carrots.. in a book my nana bought me. Memorable School Stories Collection. My nana bought me all the loveliest books. he knew i loved reading. he bought me the entire Saint Clare series (enid blyton) in one go in Peshawar. He bought me the Mallory towers series. He bought me Enid Blytons numerous other titles from Ferozsons in Lahore (we were posted there at the time). I miss him. i still remember him coming home from work everyday to 2B Link Avenue in Karachi and saying "paani lao" and i used to run and get it. Then he used to turn on the AC full blast and sleep :) it used to be so nice and cold.. the soft drone of the air conditioner, curtains pulled, nana sleeping and me making tents out of nanis sheets and pretending i was in an alaskan winter. Thats what made my childhood the beautiful place that it was. By far the most peaceful times in my memory.. even now as i think of it, a tranquility steals over my entire soul. i love all my grandparents..
somehow sleep isnt as peaceful as those afternoon naps anymore.. you mind keeps racing at a 1000 miles an hour with a zillion different deliverables, bills, and responsibilities racing through it... no wonder every one keeps lamenting the loss of their childhoods..
sigh... anyway life is other wise ok.. new horizons to explore.. new things to learn. Allah Mian keeps life interesting.. Inshallah he shall keep me and my loved ones safe from all harm and keep all negativity and evil as far away from us as possible.. inshallah..
cheerios dudes n dudettes
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004 to inifinity
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Sunday, January 08, 2006
the long & short of it all..
its at the most innocuous times in your life that you realize that life is a constant series of highs n lows... like the dunes of the desert.
In retrospect, the desert is the best metaphor for the human life span that i have ever come across. Just saw the end of "The flight of the Phoenix" on cable with Dennis Quaid. one minute the dunes have a certain shape and rhythm.. the next theres a storm that blows your entire world apart and changes the very face of the terrain you sought to call your own. its no better or worse. just mindblowingly unfamiliar. and thats what happens in life on a semi daily basis.
there are two types of people in this world. one the kind that obsesses on every mistake they ever made, and either get depressed and kill themselves or correct every single shortcoming they come across and attain the success that few even aspire to. Two are the kind that focus wholely and solely on forgetting all the mishaps and mistakes they ever made and try to be as happy as they can, ignoring their shortcomings and resign themselves to a life of average achievement and balance.
Neither is wrong. if you are a type A or a Type B personality, youre not wrong either way. Its just who you are. But while the Type As in this world may be responsible for propelling the world forward into the next century, they are probably also responsible for disbalanced households, traumatized childhoods & psychosomatic stress & diahrea for everyone around them.
Type B personalities can be credited with making the world go round on a daily basis without too many accelerations in between. they can be held responsible for repeating mistakes, not having too much vision, being too focused on today and not enough on tomorrow, but they'll be happier people because they focus on the day at hand and try to make it as rich as possible.
You can be either and believe you lived a good life. so its no biggie.. but when the dunes change, they change for everyone. so one fine day both types wake up and its like woah.. whered my dune go.. i HATE that feeling..
it means you have to remap your entire life.. decide what stays and what goes as youre forced to go through your closets in a spring cleaning session and get rid of everything that could possibly slow you down as you embark on this new chapter in your desert safari.
Now since all of us have that vision of the ideal existence entrenched in our minds, anything that remotely poses a deviation can send our puny little minds into cyclonic frenzy.. like someone took a finger and swirled it around in your head.. that phrase is borrowed from a movie or tv show that i own. i happen to like it alot.. the line not the sensation.
And these days it happens alot. i dont know the answer... my philosophy of life revolves around the find your happiness everyday and leave the rest to Allah mian.. but others can make you feel really stupid for not having the vision or drive to plan out every element of your future existance.. thats where the finger swirling in head phrase comes into play.
Its also got something to do with aging. my teeth hurt, my head hurts, my gums hurt, sometimes my knees hurt.. i think im old and coming apart rapidly at the seams.. so far the way i was looking at life was.. cool another 30 years and i'll be dead..
but in certain moments it turns to what happens if i start doing something different and suddenly being dead at 60 becomes such a far away reality because you have to live through the consequences of the decision you are making today for the next 32 years.
Am i wrong? to be happy in the moment.. to not be planning.. to not giving overdue importance to where my next salary will come from or who will backstab me next.. are those people better off who dont trust anyone and watch their backs all the time and do whatever the hell it takes to get ahead in the workplace and the world.. are they happier.. are their families better taken care off.. is their life better lived than mine..
i dont want to live a life of stress.. i dont want to wake up everyday and feel like crawling back into my blankets.. i want to rise and shine and walk out into a garden take a beautiful deep breath and embrace the day.. hopefully the sun will quickly be covered with clouds.. because i prefer cloudy days vs sunny ones which give me headaches.. and the way i see it, its not too much to ask.
so heres where i make an executive decision. Good luck to all those who think through everything they do down to the last letter... as for me im going to go on bumbling through my life with a silly smile on my face til i croak..
May Allah mian guide my every step and keep me and my loved ones safe and blessed..
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004 to inifinity
In retrospect, the desert is the best metaphor for the human life span that i have ever come across. Just saw the end of "The flight of the Phoenix" on cable with Dennis Quaid. one minute the dunes have a certain shape and rhythm.. the next theres a storm that blows your entire world apart and changes the very face of the terrain you sought to call your own. its no better or worse. just mindblowingly unfamiliar. and thats what happens in life on a semi daily basis.
there are two types of people in this world. one the kind that obsesses on every mistake they ever made, and either get depressed and kill themselves or correct every single shortcoming they come across and attain the success that few even aspire to. Two are the kind that focus wholely and solely on forgetting all the mishaps and mistakes they ever made and try to be as happy as they can, ignoring their shortcomings and resign themselves to a life of average achievement and balance.
Neither is wrong. if you are a type A or a Type B personality, youre not wrong either way. Its just who you are. But while the Type As in this world may be responsible for propelling the world forward into the next century, they are probably also responsible for disbalanced households, traumatized childhoods & psychosomatic stress & diahrea for everyone around them.
Type B personalities can be credited with making the world go round on a daily basis without too many accelerations in between. they can be held responsible for repeating mistakes, not having too much vision, being too focused on today and not enough on tomorrow, but they'll be happier people because they focus on the day at hand and try to make it as rich as possible.
You can be either and believe you lived a good life. so its no biggie.. but when the dunes change, they change for everyone. so one fine day both types wake up and its like woah.. whered my dune go.. i HATE that feeling..
it means you have to remap your entire life.. decide what stays and what goes as youre forced to go through your closets in a spring cleaning session and get rid of everything that could possibly slow you down as you embark on this new chapter in your desert safari.
Now since all of us have that vision of the ideal existence entrenched in our minds, anything that remotely poses a deviation can send our puny little minds into cyclonic frenzy.. like someone took a finger and swirled it around in your head.. that phrase is borrowed from a movie or tv show that i own. i happen to like it alot.. the line not the sensation.
And these days it happens alot. i dont know the answer... my philosophy of life revolves around the find your happiness everyday and leave the rest to Allah mian.. but others can make you feel really stupid for not having the vision or drive to plan out every element of your future existance.. thats where the finger swirling in head phrase comes into play.
Its also got something to do with aging. my teeth hurt, my head hurts, my gums hurt, sometimes my knees hurt.. i think im old and coming apart rapidly at the seams.. so far the way i was looking at life was.. cool another 30 years and i'll be dead..
but in certain moments it turns to what happens if i start doing something different and suddenly being dead at 60 becomes such a far away reality because you have to live through the consequences of the decision you are making today for the next 32 years.
Am i wrong? to be happy in the moment.. to not be planning.. to not giving overdue importance to where my next salary will come from or who will backstab me next.. are those people better off who dont trust anyone and watch their backs all the time and do whatever the hell it takes to get ahead in the workplace and the world.. are they happier.. are their families better taken care off.. is their life better lived than mine..
i dont want to live a life of stress.. i dont want to wake up everyday and feel like crawling back into my blankets.. i want to rise and shine and walk out into a garden take a beautiful deep breath and embrace the day.. hopefully the sun will quickly be covered with clouds.. because i prefer cloudy days vs sunny ones which give me headaches.. and the way i see it, its not too much to ask.
so heres where i make an executive decision. Good luck to all those who think through everything they do down to the last letter... as for me im going to go on bumbling through my life with a silly smile on my face til i croak..
May Allah mian guide my every step and keep me and my loved ones safe and blessed..
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004 to inifinity
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Happy New Year
Good morning folks.. and a happy new year to you all..
its been a nice beginning.. i had a paratha and chicken qeema & a hot cup of tea... the sunlight is dripping into the lounge.. warmth pervades my being.. sounds of domesticity resound around me.. Red Eye plays in the back ground... New years was a bit like xmas.. there were ipods in the house :)
maybe Gods planning to bless us further..
I'm no angel.. i wish i had a halo and wings.. but im pretty sure i cant fly and my halos pretty tarnished if i ever had one..
I know deep down inside that im a good person.. but knowing something vaguely vs. with conviction is different. acually im pretty convinced im a good person. its just i sometimes focus heavily on just saving myself from being hurt by klling emotions within me.. the numb factor. its effective. it works.
but generally im a good person. i mean im not evil. i dont try to hurt people. i try not to damage, defame, demotivate.. but that doesnt stop others from doing that.. that pisses me off. my favorite mode of existence in the world is "anonymous".
i guess we all want that at some time or another. some more than most.
i have that to a large extent in lahore.. atleast i think i do. i dont know anyone.. no one knows me.. the people i do know i see on a daily basis. they arent bad. generally nice people. i dont put too much though behind my day to day living. it happens on auto pilot. even the weekly flights back & forth happens on auto pilot. its funny that way..
skys all golden with the midday sun.. streaks of gold spilling into the tv lounge.. dull gold filling the air around me. stationary fan signalling the winter months... dull throbbing in my head.. think i need more tea.. and maybe more food.. i cant stop thinking about food.. its like i keep craving new taste although my tummy tells me its not hungry in the least.. lol :) kya karein.. control nahin hota..
i want the basics in life.. i want to take care of my parents and my family. i want to contribute to the running of the household both in terms of effort and materially.. i want to live a full life.. and have no stress or negativity.. and with that statement i have passed into the realms of illusion and the utopia everyone dreams of. :)
thats all i want. food. money for the credit card bills. general sense of well being and happiness.. umm.. also my internet connection and a computer.. and well my digital camera, mobile phone, maybe an mp3 player and an FM Radio.. damn i forgot the TV (must have channel E) and well a DVD player isnt a bad thing to have..
sighhhh... i think i can be happy with the basics of life listed above..
suddenly Red Eye has gotten really interesting.. i mean Rachel McAdams kicks ass man.. :)
i come back to reality now.. my inner cravings want a cup of tea and a sandwich..
Sometimes reality aint bad :) especially since theres food involved...
before signing off i want to thank Allah Mian for being one wise being.. he has never given me more than i can handle. he's always given me just enough.. just enough happiness.. just enough electronics (yeah yeah i'll get over it when i want to).. maybe just a tad bit more edibles than my fair share.. just enough success.. just enough friends.. just enough of everything.. never more than just enough.. and thats just enough.. :)
i need to learn to thank him a hell of a lot more than just enough though cause right now i dont think i even qualify on the just enough bit.. had a few conversations with some people in my life.. one of them was regarding compromises - how theyre easy to make once you're secure in yourself.. and one was regarding finding someone special and defending your right to choose.. both were enlightening.. both made me realize that there are so many facets of life that we never think about because we never have to face them.. but sometimes through the people we care about.. we end up catching a glimpse of life that was heretofore unknown to us.. and it helps shape us as human beings.. i guess we should take time to thank the people around us.. because essentially they end up being our teachers. directly or indirectly..
thank you.. to all of you.. and to God and the Universe..
Car pe diem... Sieze the Day... (From the Movie "Dead Poets Society", also the source of "Oh Captain, my Captain" - one of the best damn movies of the last century and possibly this one as well.. )
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004 to inifinity
its been a nice beginning.. i had a paratha and chicken qeema & a hot cup of tea... the sunlight is dripping into the lounge.. warmth pervades my being.. sounds of domesticity resound around me.. Red Eye plays in the back ground... New years was a bit like xmas.. there were ipods in the house :)
maybe Gods planning to bless us further..
I'm no angel.. i wish i had a halo and wings.. but im pretty sure i cant fly and my halos pretty tarnished if i ever had one..
I know deep down inside that im a good person.. but knowing something vaguely vs. with conviction is different. acually im pretty convinced im a good person. its just i sometimes focus heavily on just saving myself from being hurt by klling emotions within me.. the numb factor. its effective. it works.
but generally im a good person. i mean im not evil. i dont try to hurt people. i try not to damage, defame, demotivate.. but that doesnt stop others from doing that.. that pisses me off. my favorite mode of existence in the world is "anonymous".
i guess we all want that at some time or another. some more than most.
i have that to a large extent in lahore.. atleast i think i do. i dont know anyone.. no one knows me.. the people i do know i see on a daily basis. they arent bad. generally nice people. i dont put too much though behind my day to day living. it happens on auto pilot. even the weekly flights back & forth happens on auto pilot. its funny that way..
skys all golden with the midday sun.. streaks of gold spilling into the tv lounge.. dull gold filling the air around me. stationary fan signalling the winter months... dull throbbing in my head.. think i need more tea.. and maybe more food.. i cant stop thinking about food.. its like i keep craving new taste although my tummy tells me its not hungry in the least.. lol :) kya karein.. control nahin hota..
i want the basics in life.. i want to take care of my parents and my family. i want to contribute to the running of the household both in terms of effort and materially.. i want to live a full life.. and have no stress or negativity.. and with that statement i have passed into the realms of illusion and the utopia everyone dreams of. :)
thats all i want. food. money for the credit card bills. general sense of well being and happiness.. umm.. also my internet connection and a computer.. and well my digital camera, mobile phone, maybe an mp3 player and an FM Radio.. damn i forgot the TV (must have channel E) and well a DVD player isnt a bad thing to have..
sighhhh... i think i can be happy with the basics of life listed above..
suddenly Red Eye has gotten really interesting.. i mean Rachel McAdams kicks ass man.. :)
i come back to reality now.. my inner cravings want a cup of tea and a sandwich..
Sometimes reality aint bad :) especially since theres food involved...
before signing off i want to thank Allah Mian for being one wise being.. he has never given me more than i can handle. he's always given me just enough.. just enough happiness.. just enough electronics (yeah yeah i'll get over it when i want to).. maybe just a tad bit more edibles than my fair share.. just enough success.. just enough friends.. just enough of everything.. never more than just enough.. and thats just enough.. :)
i need to learn to thank him a hell of a lot more than just enough though cause right now i dont think i even qualify on the just enough bit.. had a few conversations with some people in my life.. one of them was regarding compromises - how theyre easy to make once you're secure in yourself.. and one was regarding finding someone special and defending your right to choose.. both were enlightening.. both made me realize that there are so many facets of life that we never think about because we never have to face them.. but sometimes through the people we care about.. we end up catching a glimpse of life that was heretofore unknown to us.. and it helps shape us as human beings.. i guess we should take time to thank the people around us.. because essentially they end up being our teachers. directly or indirectly..
thank you.. to all of you.. and to God and the Universe..
Car pe diem... Sieze the Day... (From the Movie "Dead Poets Society", also the source of "Oh Captain, my Captain" - one of the best damn movies of the last century and possibly this one as well.. )
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004 to inifinity
Friday, December 30, 2005
100 - Its finally a century
a century of what you ask?!.. This is my 100th post on this blog..
and its around the same time that i started blogging in the first place in 2003.. :) funny aint it..
i remember this time so well.. it was nearing new years the day i wrote my 1st blog... it was a slightly depressing time in my life as all decembers were apt to being.. the winter season has always traditionally been one of upheaval and irritation in general for me..
i dont like it.. i love the winters, but the whole upheaval part is something i can live without if you know what i mean.. i dont like psychosomatic stress.. it gives me psychosomatic diahrea.. which is not the nicest thing in the world if you know what i mean..
do you know what i mean.. i mean really.. do you..?
do you even care..
its been two years.. does any care out there..
sighhh... why should you.. what goes of your father anyhow..
as always close to new years i find my self slipping into the past.. reminiscing about the way things were.. and usually i only remembered the good times.. this time round i find myself also facing upto the not so good ones.. the mistakes we've made.. the heartaches we had.. the sadness that sometimes seemed to envelop our very being...
you may have noticed i talk in plural.. it because all my monumental moments in life were usually shared with my friends and family.. when i was little, my cousins were there all along... when i got older, Allah blessed me with some very lovely friends... the ones that were worth keeping are with me still..
I sometimes wonder.. *with this funny headache resounding in my head because i had to face sun exposure this morning, hence resulting in a slightly depressed and headachy state of mind in general... is this what life is supposed to be..
i know.. i know.. i keep coming full circle to this ageless question.. but somethimes i feel its good to sit back and REALLY look at your life and see what its all about.. sometimes when you feel life isnt making sense, dont make excuses for it.. either accept that you've screwed up somewhere and try to fix it.. or dont even think about it and go on as you are..
whats the worst that can happen anyway.. God has already ordained how much money you're going to get on your stay on earth.. and how much food you will eat. does that also mean its already ordained how much fat we'll have on our bodies.. no no no.. ahem.. God has also left the choice of whether or not to exercise upto us.. so inspite of the abundent availability of food, we also have the right to lose the fat.. easier said than done?! I KNOW!!
Personally i think its like a cat and mouse game. or a vicious circle. you eat, you get fat. you dont eat, you get depressed. you eat and exercise, you're a saint. which im not.. plus which when i get fat i also get depressed.. so im seriously screwed.
You have to love Allah Mian though.. hes got his ways.. i cant ever complain i didnt have enough to eat, wear or any scarcity of electronic gadgetry (my three main reasons for being).. i can however complain about the abundance of certain negatives in my life.. none of which i will mention..
some venting doesnt need to recorded on public blogs :)
oh well.. i'll be back.. i'll go crawl under my rock for a few days till i can come back out with my head in order.
tudeloo darlins
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004 to inifinity
and its around the same time that i started blogging in the first place in 2003.. :) funny aint it..
i remember this time so well.. it was nearing new years the day i wrote my 1st blog... it was a slightly depressing time in my life as all decembers were apt to being.. the winter season has always traditionally been one of upheaval and irritation in general for me..
i dont like it.. i love the winters, but the whole upheaval part is something i can live without if you know what i mean.. i dont like psychosomatic stress.. it gives me psychosomatic diahrea.. which is not the nicest thing in the world if you know what i mean..
do you know what i mean.. i mean really.. do you..?
do you even care..
its been two years.. does any care out there..
sighhh... why should you.. what goes of your father anyhow..
as always close to new years i find my self slipping into the past.. reminiscing about the way things were.. and usually i only remembered the good times.. this time round i find myself also facing upto the not so good ones.. the mistakes we've made.. the heartaches we had.. the sadness that sometimes seemed to envelop our very being...
you may have noticed i talk in plural.. it because all my monumental moments in life were usually shared with my friends and family.. when i was little, my cousins were there all along... when i got older, Allah blessed me with some very lovely friends... the ones that were worth keeping are with me still..
I sometimes wonder.. *with this funny headache resounding in my head because i had to face sun exposure this morning, hence resulting in a slightly depressed and headachy state of mind in general... is this what life is supposed to be..
i know.. i know.. i keep coming full circle to this ageless question.. but somethimes i feel its good to sit back and REALLY look at your life and see what its all about.. sometimes when you feel life isnt making sense, dont make excuses for it.. either accept that you've screwed up somewhere and try to fix it.. or dont even think about it and go on as you are..
whats the worst that can happen anyway.. God has already ordained how much money you're going to get on your stay on earth.. and how much food you will eat. does that also mean its already ordained how much fat we'll have on our bodies.. no no no.. ahem.. God has also left the choice of whether or not to exercise upto us.. so inspite of the abundent availability of food, we also have the right to lose the fat.. easier said than done?! I KNOW!!
Personally i think its like a cat and mouse game. or a vicious circle. you eat, you get fat. you dont eat, you get depressed. you eat and exercise, you're a saint. which im not.. plus which when i get fat i also get depressed.. so im seriously screwed.
You have to love Allah Mian though.. hes got his ways.. i cant ever complain i didnt have enough to eat, wear or any scarcity of electronic gadgetry (my three main reasons for being).. i can however complain about the abundance of certain negatives in my life.. none of which i will mention..
some venting doesnt need to recorded on public blogs :)
oh well.. i'll be back.. i'll go crawl under my rock for a few days till i can come back out with my head in order.
tudeloo darlins
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004 to inifinity
Thursday, December 22, 2005
The hyposcrisy of it all
I was seething with anger and suppressed rage yesterday..
someone we once knew had the gall to call up someone else we know and actually had the audacity to complain that they werent included in the significent occassions of our lives.
I have no time or energy to waste on individuals who donot know even the most fundamental basics of ... ANYTHING...
This is a message and its loud and clear. Certain people in this world DONOT EXIST on the periphery of our existance. They shouldnt have existed ever.. it took us a while to wisen up to it. But now that we have, its not a lesson we will easily forget.. Stop calling our friends and aquaintances and complaining that you have been wronged because you werent made a part of something.
You werent made a part because you werent wanted. You werent required. You donot exist. Life goes on.
And you started it. We didnt end things. We in our sublime idiocy believed that all people are inherently good. Well now we know better. Some people are plain evil. And its best to stay away from them.
We dont want to know you. We dont want to associate with you. We dont want you to know how we are, where we are, or what the hell we are doing.
We are happy living our lives and its not our fault that you have a screwed up existence and no friends to call your own that you have to go around calling up people and complaining about being left out of the lives of people that you intentionally havent spoken, associated with or kept up any appearances with for the past 5 years and running.. And Thank God Almighty, we are all the better for it..
we are happier and content without the constant speculation, judgement, bullshit, bitchiness and politicizing that we had to deal with in your presence.
We wish you all the best in your own hole in the world. Good riddance.
Hasta lavista..
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004 to inifinity
someone we once knew had the gall to call up someone else we know and actually had the audacity to complain that they werent included in the significent occassions of our lives.
I have no time or energy to waste on individuals who donot know even the most fundamental basics of ... ANYTHING...
This is a message and its loud and clear. Certain people in this world DONOT EXIST on the periphery of our existance. They shouldnt have existed ever.. it took us a while to wisen up to it. But now that we have, its not a lesson we will easily forget.. Stop calling our friends and aquaintances and complaining that you have been wronged because you werent made a part of something.
You werent made a part because you werent wanted. You werent required. You donot exist. Life goes on.
And you started it. We didnt end things. We in our sublime idiocy believed that all people are inherently good. Well now we know better. Some people are plain evil. And its best to stay away from them.
We dont want to know you. We dont want to associate with you. We dont want you to know how we are, where we are, or what the hell we are doing.
We are happy living our lives and its not our fault that you have a screwed up existence and no friends to call your own that you have to go around calling up people and complaining about being left out of the lives of people that you intentionally havent spoken, associated with or kept up any appearances with for the past 5 years and running.. And Thank God Almighty, we are all the better for it..
we are happier and content without the constant speculation, judgement, bullshit, bitchiness and politicizing that we had to deal with in your presence.
We wish you all the best in your own hole in the world. Good riddance.
Hasta lavista..
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004 to inifinity
Thursday, December 15, 2005
My life as a slave
Thats what i am.. a corporate slave ... sigh
for all our high handed notions of grandeur that we all aspire towards at the end of the day.. thats what we are.. sighhhhhh..
theres no positive or negative to it.. its just a sorry fact of life and something that must be accepted with whatever bitterness or resignation to fate thats required...
my matchmaking efforts arent progressing with any efficiency.. contrary to my expectations no one actually wants any help. everyone seems to be quite content in their little existences and dont really want any help in trying to change their marital status..
sigh.. i was so looking forward to having some sense of achievement by helping along our Lords work but it seems these lowly mortals just dont seem to get it.
its not that tough trying to give someone a chance. i mean you dont have to marry the first person you meet, but atleast meet them. At the very least it would be an educational experience about whats out there and what to avoid.
Theres only so much nature can do... the rest is up to the individuals.. no?
anyway.. the weathers getting colder by the day. i cant seem to figure out what to do.. its soo cold i cant drag myself out of the double blankets i encase my self in each night.. brrrr.. by the morning when you're as warm as toast, you really dont want to get out and face the morning chill..
i gotta go.. me and my fwiendsy anie are going to have kachoris at the minigolf cause they have really awesome kachoris..
cheerios
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004 to inifinity
for all our high handed notions of grandeur that we all aspire towards at the end of the day.. thats what we are.. sighhhhhh..
theres no positive or negative to it.. its just a sorry fact of life and something that must be accepted with whatever bitterness or resignation to fate thats required...
my matchmaking efforts arent progressing with any efficiency.. contrary to my expectations no one actually wants any help. everyone seems to be quite content in their little existences and dont really want any help in trying to change their marital status..
sigh.. i was so looking forward to having some sense of achievement by helping along our Lords work but it seems these lowly mortals just dont seem to get it.
its not that tough trying to give someone a chance. i mean you dont have to marry the first person you meet, but atleast meet them. At the very least it would be an educational experience about whats out there and what to avoid.
Theres only so much nature can do... the rest is up to the individuals.. no?
anyway.. the weathers getting colder by the day. i cant seem to figure out what to do.. its soo cold i cant drag myself out of the double blankets i encase my self in each night.. brrrr.. by the morning when you're as warm as toast, you really dont want to get out and face the morning chill..
i gotta go.. me and my fwiendsy anie are going to have kachoris at the minigolf cause they have really awesome kachoris..
cheerios
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004 to inifinity
Monday, December 05, 2005
Matrimonial Services
I have decided to help propagate the human race and offer my services in the highly sawaab worthy enterprise of matchmaking.
Now what should i name my little endeavor?!...
i though of "Made in Heaven".. but then it seemed too corny and considering the current success rates you never know...
so to think of something... i am starting a separate blog page just for this purpose.
"Practical Cupid"
Anyone who wants to be under great confidentiality matched, kindly send in your particulars via the blog and you will be replied to in case a match is made. Only seriously shareef people who are having issues meeting "person right" should even bother. otherwise its a waste of time.
Also i think that unless the applying individuals have parents that are open to them waltzing in one day with their chosen significant other on their arm, they should refrain from walking down this path.
Also please note, vis this service the interested parties will only be provided one, MAXIMUM TWO chaperoned visitations. Post the initial introduction you're on your own. Sink or swim.. its your deal. the end.
the blog name is practicalcupid.blogspot.com
There are no guarantees. There are no guarantees to life.. take a risk, be open minded, leave your judgements at the door and see what the world holds..
:) wow thats great text.. im using this as an intro on the page. :)
cheerios
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004 to inifinity
Now what should i name my little endeavor?!...
i though of "Made in Heaven".. but then it seemed too corny and considering the current success rates you never know...
so to think of something... i am starting a separate blog page just for this purpose.
"Practical Cupid"
Anyone who wants to be under great confidentiality matched, kindly send in your particulars via the blog and you will be replied to in case a match is made. Only seriously shareef people who are having issues meeting "person right" should even bother. otherwise its a waste of time.
Also i think that unless the applying individuals have parents that are open to them waltzing in one day with their chosen significant other on their arm, they should refrain from walking down this path.
Also please note, vis this service the interested parties will only be provided one, MAXIMUM TWO chaperoned visitations. Post the initial introduction you're on your own. Sink or swim.. its your deal. the end.
the blog name is practicalcupid.blogspot.com
There are no guarantees. There are no guarantees to life.. take a risk, be open minded, leave your judgements at the door and see what the world holds..
:) wow thats great text.. im using this as an intro on the page. :)
cheerios
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004 to inifinity
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Chilly nights & sunny days
Sometimes Allah mian decides to make us realize just how dynamic life is... by shifting around the game pieces in a flash, completely changing the rules of the game.
that realization is brought home to me the most in my current profession. Each day is a new storm waiting to happen.. each day opens with the promise of uncertainty and change written in bright red block letters written on the horizon.. sometimes it feels like i'm going to experience constant... ahem... delicate constitution issues.. because as we all know, the body empties the bowels when it prepares for battle.. making most battlefields in my estimation a particularly smelly piece of land.. yet simultaneously highly fertile..
i digress.. i've been reading this book these days. Why men dont talk and why women cant read maps.. its apparently based on scientific fact and attributes all the peculiarities of human behavior to genetic evolution from our bygone days of caveman existence. its very interesting and quite true as well. Loads of fun to read. Another one i bought in a flash of inspiration from the sunday market next to the Arts council, khi, is the gabriel garcia marquez Love in the time of cholera. Havent started reading it yet but the first page opened nicely. and i figure if nothing else it'll help me improve my vocabulary .. lol..
So thats that.
hmmm ... im gonna go and have my lunch now.. the other great thing is that i've been walking 30 mins every day for the past 3 days. InshAllah i will continue :) lol.. fitness and me dont mix well but i love walking/running.. out in the open.. regimentation has never agreed with me..
cheerios
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004
that realization is brought home to me the most in my current profession. Each day is a new storm waiting to happen.. each day opens with the promise of uncertainty and change written in bright red block letters written on the horizon.. sometimes it feels like i'm going to experience constant... ahem... delicate constitution issues.. because as we all know, the body empties the bowels when it prepares for battle.. making most battlefields in my estimation a particularly smelly piece of land.. yet simultaneously highly fertile..
i digress.. i've been reading this book these days. Why men dont talk and why women cant read maps.. its apparently based on scientific fact and attributes all the peculiarities of human behavior to genetic evolution from our bygone days of caveman existence. its very interesting and quite true as well. Loads of fun to read. Another one i bought in a flash of inspiration from the sunday market next to the Arts council, khi, is the gabriel garcia marquez Love in the time of cholera. Havent started reading it yet but the first page opened nicely. and i figure if nothing else it'll help me improve my vocabulary .. lol..
So thats that.
hmmm ... im gonna go and have my lunch now.. the other great thing is that i've been walking 30 mins every day for the past 3 days. InshAllah i will continue :) lol.. fitness and me dont mix well but i love walking/running.. out in the open.. regimentation has never agreed with me..
cheerios
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Cricket fever
I always knew I'd hate cricket eventually. As a single woman, its ok to like sports. Having your own TV in your room also helps you tolerate the occasional tendency of your loving dad to dabble in watching something as mundane as cricket 24/7 for as long as its broadcasted.
I have to give my mum credit though. She cured my dad of wasting time on frivolous pursuits such as watching television a long time back. I believe its a combination of nagging + yelling that does the trick. The most hardened male is known to collapse in the face of female perseverance. However my dad found a substitute in the form of the internet and computers. That's a phenomenon which my mum doesn't understand so well so she's still trying to find the weak link to make that obsession come crashing to the ground too.
now me.. I never wanted a TV in the marital bedroom. I figured out much earlier thanks to my innate intuition which I have in abundance by virtue of being female, that a TV placed in a contained geographical area, with no picture in picture or split screen features, was a recipe for disaster. It opens up the vistas for a usually democratic govt. to tailspin into a headlong fall towards an age old battle - the mastery of the Remote control.
it would be unethical of me to disclose the details regarding the outcome of the battle in this case, but lets just say the show must go on. Even if it involves throwing one of the participants out of the battle ground till further notice.
but men are slow and don't understand how the delicate balance of power can be visibly upset when presented with something as basic as "who gets to rule the TV screen". As for me, I'm happy as long as its me.
its a nice quiet Sunday and thanks to cricket I am unable to watch my most cherished channel. Channel E. I must have my daily dose of what's going on in the lives of the Hollywood elite. It makes me feel... Informed. :) heheh.. and well its fun. As a woman I love gossip and when I get it without any effort its even more fun :).
I think I'll go now and wrestle the remote away from my other half.. he's had enough cricket for the day..
Note to all: Don't EVER share the remote and where sports are concerned, make it a rule not to allow them to be viewed on anything but the Lounge TV.
cheerios.
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004
I have to give my mum credit though. She cured my dad of wasting time on frivolous pursuits such as watching television a long time back. I believe its a combination of nagging + yelling that does the trick. The most hardened male is known to collapse in the face of female perseverance. However my dad found a substitute in the form of the internet and computers. That's a phenomenon which my mum doesn't understand so well so she's still trying to find the weak link to make that obsession come crashing to the ground too.
now me.. I never wanted a TV in the marital bedroom. I figured out much earlier thanks to my innate intuition which I have in abundance by virtue of being female, that a TV placed in a contained geographical area, with no picture in picture or split screen features, was a recipe for disaster. It opens up the vistas for a usually democratic govt. to tailspin into a headlong fall towards an age old battle - the mastery of the Remote control.
it would be unethical of me to disclose the details regarding the outcome of the battle in this case, but lets just say the show must go on. Even if it involves throwing one of the participants out of the battle ground till further notice.
but men are slow and don't understand how the delicate balance of power can be visibly upset when presented with something as basic as "who gets to rule the TV screen". As for me, I'm happy as long as its me.
its a nice quiet Sunday and thanks to cricket I am unable to watch my most cherished channel. Channel E. I must have my daily dose of what's going on in the lives of the Hollywood elite. It makes me feel... Informed. :) heheh.. and well its fun. As a woman I love gossip and when I get it without any effort its even more fun :).
I think I'll go now and wrestle the remote away from my other half.. he's had enough cricket for the day..
Note to all: Don't EVER share the remote and where sports are concerned, make it a rule not to allow them to be viewed on anything but the Lounge TV.
cheerios.
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Reminiscences
I'm sitting here in S dadijans room on the couch watching Smallville. She was usually asleep by now. Memories are so fleeting. I saw an Ed yesterday in which he's going nuts trying to capture his most cherished memories on tape. Video. Reminded me of me. But I've missed many great moments. I was standing in the London Tube system the other day watching this man trying to remember the number of pockets on his cargoes and I knew the memory would slip away from my sieve like memory in a hurry. I was right. It's all gone now.
I remember a day not so long ago when Fais and I sat with S dadijan on one of his visits. She told us about how she used to play football when she was younger. Fais was so surprised. She laughed when she saw his reaction.
I remember the last time I saw her before I left for London. She was so alert. She knew the names of all her nurses and doctors even remembering things where uzmchis memory would fail her. She kissed me thrice when I said goodbye and kept asking how fais was. There was talk of shifting her out of the ICU into her own room. I left happy knowing she would be well. That was the last time I saw her.
Now I'm home. And sitting in the room I shared with her for over a year I find myself staying awake at night just thinking about how life just starts and ends and all we have is the time in between to be happy. Or miserable as per our choice.
Sometimes it seems as if the power of choice is wrested away from us. Sometimes it feels like we are carried away by the flow of circumstances and there's no control over where the currents will carry us and where our feet will finally find solid ground.
Maybe the objective of life is not to rest on solid ground. Maybe its purpose lies in fighting the currents to keep our heads above the water for as long as we can and once the fight has gone out of us our purpose is to gracefully surrender and sink to the riverbed for our final abode.
Maybe that's it..
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004
I remember a day not so long ago when Fais and I sat with S dadijan on one of his visits. She told us about how she used to play football when she was younger. Fais was so surprised. She laughed when she saw his reaction.
I remember the last time I saw her before I left for London. She was so alert. She knew the names of all her nurses and doctors even remembering things where uzmchis memory would fail her. She kissed me thrice when I said goodbye and kept asking how fais was. There was talk of shifting her out of the ICU into her own room. I left happy knowing she would be well. That was the last time I saw her.
Now I'm home. And sitting in the room I shared with her for over a year I find myself staying awake at night just thinking about how life just starts and ends and all we have is the time in between to be happy. Or miserable as per our choice.
Sometimes it seems as if the power of choice is wrested away from us. Sometimes it feels like we are carried away by the flow of circumstances and there's no control over where the currents will carry us and where our feet will finally find solid ground.
Maybe the objective of life is not to rest on solid ground. Maybe its purpose lies in fighting the currents to keep our heads above the water for as long as we can and once the fight has gone out of us our purpose is to gracefully surrender and sink to the riverbed for our final abode.
Maybe that's it..
Princess of the GemWorld
*****************************************************
I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld
Copyright © Fars - FS 2004
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)