i think life sucks again...

We have been sucked into a vortex of disgustingness.. i hate it..
its disgusting.. i hate hate hate it..

a feeling of powerlessness and impotence.. to change things according to your own will.. its excruciating and nasty.. and every1 marches to the beat of their own drum.. jeez.. why.. just march.. why do u need a beat.. that too your own.. sometimes you should just march to someone else's.

thats what its about.

aaarrrrrrggggghhhhhh...

theres NOTHING.. NOTHING in our hands.. nothing.. why?
why are there expectations when there is no control..

Why is the world so freaking STUPID!

WHY!

i dont know.. all i know is i have 35 more years to live.. Im being optimistic and adding on an extra 5 just in case.. but the way things are going i'll probably croak at 60..

and for the next 35 years i cant imagine having loose motions and stress attacks.. this isnt what my life was meant to be. I'm not sure what it was meant to be.. but i'm pretty sure this wasnt it.. i think..

sigh sigh..
was it? WAS IT??

maybe it was ... maybe thats why it doesnt get any different.. or easier..
but i hate it.. this cant be it..

i will contemplate and meditate on the logic in the universe.. maybe it shall speak to me..

Princess of the GemWorld
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