Dithered thoughts...

When harry Met Sally... best damn movie of all romantic comedy times... i say that cause in my head the best damn movie of all time would always be Top Gun... closely followed by Before Sunrise... why i say that is anybodys guess...

Before Sunrise, the Ethan Hawke-Julia Delpy classic was a festival round movie... made on a low budget.. but filled with so much thought.. it was beautiful... like a perfectly played symphony... it flowed... and i dont use these words lightly... ever... for me the highest compliment that i can ever give to a work of art is "poetry in motion".. and it was.. it really was...

It somehow shed light on personal experience... the instant bond between two separate souls.. the ability to suddenly know friend from foe.. my overly (as has been expounded by several different persons on manifold occassions) trusting nature leaves me open to this phenomenon... instant bonds is something i experience on a daily basis.. its something i believe in... its something i leave myself open to... its something i refuse to fear...

There are a zillion different ways through which we can be hurt, betrayed and slain at the alter of misjudgement... but none of these are as counterproductive as fear... of life... of living.. of anything new and unexplored... you may as well stop breathing...

For some odd reason.. this train of thought is at odds with the general thought process of nearly every other human person i run across... i think by themselves no one is afraid. We all are supremely full of ourselves and believe fully that we are the masters of our destiny and actions. Its everyone else we're worried about. Its always with other people that we suddenly become merchants of doom and expound on every single calamity that could ever befall the human race.. its always other people that we believe to be gullible, prone to mistakes and overall inept and completely unable to function normally in this world because... well you know.. EVERYONE is out to get you...NOT ME... YOU!!... Yup.. now you got it.. :)

We keep doing the exact same things that we continue warning everyone else regarding. Prime example.. my finances... I can't even count the number of times i have lectured my little sales guy (at my previous employers) regarding the evils of overspending, going as far as to confiscate his ATM card so he wouldn't eat up all his funds.. and in the same month, i'd be hitting a Zero balance myself..

Hmm.. I for one certainly do NOT believe in leading by example. or as we say at my current employers.. "Walking the Talk"... well babes.. it ain't as easy as it lookest... Another prime example being Chips.. woe to anyone who would try to snare even ONE chip in my entire bagful of the lovely fried crispy potatoes... they will lose a finger if not the whole hand.. a freshly obliterated bag of Salt & Vinegar Lays will bear testament to this fact.. You should see me though when I lecture others on the evils of junkfood and its related ailments.. In this case however, its easy to see the self serving angle and so i guess this isnt one of the worlds best examples i could have quoted.

I guess the issue is that we as a race don't like leaving well enough alone. Why should someone be allowed to live alone in isolation? Of course they shouldn't.. *major sarcasm dripping there... life should be led according to how "I" see the world... of course it should.. *sarcasm overdose here..

Now "I" is always relative... obviously to the person utilizing this much abused pronoun.. Sigh.. i have a headache.. i thinks its all the salt in my system.. i need green veggies & fruits now.. sigh sigh sighhh...

Its ironic that sometimes the very things we believe in and practice come back to bite us in the.. ahem.. yeah yeah.. so i'm a relatively polite blogger... can't help it... so consider it said... Its like saying... and i am speaking metaphorically on a very highly metaphorical scale.. well its like saying.. vanilla and chocolate go well together.. and lets say i have believed that all my life.. i think vanilla & chocolate.. two harmless flavors can easily coexist in the same bowl, keeping all remaning things constant and ensuring temperatures remain below freezing.. So there you have it.. vanilla & chocolate... as different as night & day, yet easily compatible and may we say, even friendly in the same bowl..

Now all you have to do to counter the premise that vanilla & chocolate can coexist without any fireworks or overlaps affecting their individuality or personal space.. is... turn up the heat.. so there goes the entire premise out the window... EXCEPT... at the outset of the hypothesis we stated.. ALL THINGS REMAINING CONSTANT... so following the rules of the Hypothesis, we stand corrected.. and happily in our perfect world of freezing temp. zones, vanilla & chocolate will continue to coexist and have meaningful conversation regarding the weather and the best colors for icecream... they may even discuss innovations in flavors and... ok thats stretching it..

I guess what i surmise out of this convoluted train of thought is that everyone has their own idea of what the temperature is in life.. some like it hot.. others are ok with the arctic and then there are some like me... who sleep in blankys with ACs running full throttle, while the world outside is nice and balmy.. we're weird.. and we're far and few... the world is lucky...

i go have lunch & tea.. i need tea... ****caffiene deficiency alert... teeroun teeroun teeroun..

Cheerios dahlin's (had those for breakfast.. mmmmm :)

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