aaaaaaarrrrrrggggghhhh

sometimes life can really hit you hard.

i hate reality. i hate all the connotations of reality.

i hate everything that it personifies, everything it

stands for. EVERYTHING... i HATE EVERYTHING!!!!

this is purging of the highest order.. purging the soul

of all the venom inside.. of all my rage and my anger

at the world.. at the hypocrisy it harbors... at the

deceit it veils.. the justification of its inherent meaness..

i hate it..

i hate people.. i hate their contempt. i hate their speculation. i hate the way they think they have the God-Given right to stand and pass judgement on others.. i hate that sometimes i become a part of those hordes by standing by silently and not condemning what they do..

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH....

I'm happy.. AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH....
this is just purging... just purging.. nothing more.. AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....

I hope anyone who dares to bear me and my own any illwill is disintegrated by the wrath of the Almighty where they stand..

feeling quite vindictive..

I hate people who think they can question other peoples lives.. they forget the bloody glass houses saying.. makes one want to caste some bloody boulders and watch the whole damn thing tinkle into oblivion.


Sighhhhhh.. i feel better now :)

Cheerios
Princess of the GemWorld
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i thought life was perfect

but it never is really.. theres always a dose of reality sneaking about round a corner.. and it hits you as hard as falling 165ft and striking the placid surface of a lake at breakneck speed.

the day is very very nice.. its soft and gray with a cloud cover and a soft drizzle and the last of the winter chill waiting to bid us adieu..

i can hear birds outside inspite of my permanently clogged ears. Im worried about my ears. I feel i shall be saying the same statement when i'm 50 with a hearing capacity not worth mentioning. As it is im difficult to converse with. its an experience that requires alot of patience.

I have a headache. somehow i feel ... fat. no wise ass quips now. its a serious issue. i feel very... shall we say... unfit. theres a polite word for you. And somehow i cant be pushed to do much about it. dammit. sigh. ugh.

I think i miss the ocean. Smelly as it is. i Miss it. i hate the way the sand creeps into your air, the way the sea breeze whips your locks around till they look like a tangled broom. i really dont have much to say about the world at large right now.

I am idealistic. I always have been. I view the world through the lenses of illusion, always hoping against hope that perfection as i would perceive it does exist in this world. Whether i am disappointed or not is not the question. What matters is that i believed in the first place.

I dont think ambition is necessarily a good thing. I believe it holds people back from being happy in the moment. They start living for the future, for how rosy it shall be someday and in the process make every today a bleak unfulfilled reality. Its sad.

I think i'm a contradiction in terms. I can plan out things as dumb as the color of my room 5 years into the future but nothing that actually matters. Because that scares me. I need tea and cookies. I need to mindlessly munch on my soggy solitude. sighhhhh....

ahhhh... sigh ... sweet bliss... rush of mini endorphins... *blank smile on face... suddenly life seems good again...

uh oh.. i think i'm addicted to carbohydrates and caffiene... heheh..

the sun just came out. Its falling softly againt the blinds in my cell block window :) It really looks like one of those cell block windows. lol.. its like 2ft in height and 4 ft in width.. they mustve jailed something here before me :)..

i dont like the sun somehow.. i dunno... i like me though... i think.. sometimes when i dont know me too well.. i like me.. then i remember me the way i am.. its a rude awakening.. sigh sigh...


Every now and then
We find a special friend
who never lets us down...

Who understands it all
reaches out each time we fall
you're the best friend i have found...

I know you can't stay
a part of you will never ever go away
your heart will stay.....

I'll make a wish for you,
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
if you lose your way,
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

I don't need eyes to see
the love you bring to me,
no matter where I go
and I know that you'll be there
forever-more a part of me and everywhere
I'll always care.....

I'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

and I'll be right behind your shoulder,watching you
I'll be standing by your side, all you do
and I won't ever leave
as long as you believe,
you just believe....

I'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true
if life will just be kind
to such a gentle mind
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way
remember me this way.
o.....
this way.(Remember Me This Way, Jordan McNight)

Theres this relatively new band.. i think theyve been around for a year now.. and i really liked this song too..

"Perfect"

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect (Perfect, Simple Plan)

take care all
Princess of the GemWorld

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I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld

Copyright © Fars - FS 2004

glitter

sometimes i feel overwhelmed by my own planning.. i am a compulsive TTD list maker.. for the layman thats "Things To Do".. if you have a therapist they will tell you that TTD lists are peoples way of making themselves feel selfimportant and useful. the more items you have, obviously the more work you do.. the more ticks you have on the list, the higher your rate of achievement... and if you think im going to make any disparaging remarks about the TTD lists.. dream on babe.. i LIVE by them..

I love the rush of adrenaline when i get to TICK... TICK TICK TICK... its like a small dose of prozac.. ahhh sweet accomplishment... ahhhh... :) sometimes i just put things like "Buy Soap" and feel soooo happy when i accomplish it... :) sighhhhh... life is truly complete at that moment...

Theres so much happening in life all around me that i dont know where to start. there was a time when i used to have a daily chronicle of everything that transpired in daily existence.. however i have noticed that the time i was MOST diligent in recording my escapades was when i didnt really have any to write about.. i have had pages and pages filled with TV show dialogues (War of the Worlds, Sydney, Mash) and its hilarious.. i love re-reading them cause those were massively happy, hair-not-white times.. and i miss those dammit... I think i have 15 white hair now.. sighhh... age creeps up on you without so much as a by-your-leave.. its sad. it should be taught some manners. humph..

i want a tissue ka lehnga... i cant find nice tissue here... i saw really nice tissue in all these magazines but apparently its all from across the border.. sigh.. i love shiny sparkly stuff :) glitter glitter sparkle sparkle.. i'm the kind of person who would use glitter glue to seal official mail..

Maybe i can get a glittery paint for my room... oh WOW.. that'll be the coooolest.. i leeeoouuuvve glittery shiny sparkly stuff... yessirree do..
:)

cheerios
Princess of the GemWorld
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GemWorld

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repetition

i get a strong sense of deja vu sometimes.. no relation to the coffee shop..

its weird. sometimes . right in the middle of a ****load of work suddenly the earth stops spinning on its axis, mind shuts down and thought enters a suspended reality.. everything becomes fuzzy and you get kinda lost in the moment...

Thats when i usually order a piping hot cup of tea and some ... ahem.. chocolate chip cookies and munch in a quiet pensive manner brooding over the vastness of the universe and shortness of deadlines.. its an art... staring into space while munching on a soggy cookie... you have to attune all your senses into that one moment.. it requires focus and dedication.. to shut down all other sensations except for that hot tea n cookies experience bursting upon your taste buds... hmmm.. i should skip dinner..

Its all superficial.. the world at large. i know some people who make it all worthwhile though :) its beautiful... i laugh so hard sometimes i can double over with stitches in my tummy and all about the most innocuous things.. which is amazing... it lightens the tonne of bricks i feel resting on my shoulder blades.. :) may we all be blessed with such friends and colleagues.. i truly believe i am blessed MashAllah.. May Allah continue to bless us all..

Life goes full circle i heard... i think it means life & death... its so cliched isnt it.. of course theres a beginning and an end.. and everything in between.. but theres no finality to life... there are just the moments we live in... and we should push ourselves to the limit in finding the joy in those.. its easy to walk around with a frown on your face growling at everything in your path.. but its downright fabulous to make the effort and bounce around with a smile on your face and really make the world sparkle all around you.. now THAT's something.

I'm tired.. :) but its ok.. sometimes tired is a different kind of fun..

cheerios
Princess of the GemWorld


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Spring cometh

In each life there shall cometh a spring...

tra lala lala

no thats not a poem. I dont know who im talking to now. i think except for Umy everyones left me to my own devices. Which is not a bad thing. Leaves me more secure in my self expression when i think no ones listening. Its like cursing in an empty room.



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2005

Wow.. ive been gone for a bit now.. i've realized that if you keep planning for perfection, thats all you'll end up doing...planning! there were so many moments in the past month (its been exactly a month since i last wrote).. so many moments in the past month that i thought i would draft a blog.. maybe about egypt.. add a few pictures i thought... that should be nice..

then thanks to the complicated activities required to put up such an ambitious blog, i gave it up and ended up not writing at all.. i SUCK..

ok enough self deprecation..

the years changed.
Have you noticed?

it was quite an experience.. This New years was nice.. i was in Egypt on a nile cruise when we rang in the new year.. the food was good so basically that was the deciding factor for me. We had the standard whirling dervish show and a bit more.. there was confetti and party hats and 20 children running about in gay abandon.. it was interesting..

Egypt was nice.. it was like ... a really hazy version of Karachi. I slept alot. On the entire trip. I get motion sickness if im in a car alot and well.. we were in coasters.. like.. ALOT!.. so i just used to pop off everytime i hit the seat, sofa, sidewalk, hard rock cafe... you name it and i've dozed off there.. suffice it to say, Egypt was a surreal experience.. :)


Sunset@the Citadel, Cairo, Egypt, 1st Jan 2005 © Fariha Shah 2005
 

There was ofcourse the overwhelming awe of the Pyramids.. lol.. and well lets just say it was pretty neat. We walked all the way down into one... causing our unexercised muscles to groan with the strain.. and took a look around. We climbed down into the smallest one that was open that day.. the pyramid of M.. something.. cant remember the name.. :)


The Sphinx, Cairo, Egypt, 31st Jan 2005 © Fariha Shah 2005
 

The best part was buying the khartoosh from Khan-el-Khalili.. we actually found a khartoosh factory and they made us all our khartooshes in 20 minutes.. considering thats exactly how long we had before the bus left us, it was a God send :) a khartoosh btw is a gold or silver tablet with your name written on it in egyptian heiroglyphics... also found a nice stone carving and a (ofcourse) papyrus print i liked..

That was it. Minimal shopping. Which is probably why this trip didnt leave too much of an impact. The eating was regimented except for when me and my friend raided the executive floor lounge.. they had a great high tea at 4pm.. and we were perpetually hungry :)

New Years was the funniest.. us young 'uns decided to party hearty after the nile cruise was over coz you know.. it was new years and all.. so we trooped off to the Hard Rock Cafe.. all 5 of us :).. and well i was so damn tired.. that in between the very very loud rock concert that was happening all around us, i settled my head back and dropped off to sleep hehehe... :) i couldnt help it yaar.. i need my sleep..

and from then onwards, i've had everyone come over look at me rather quizzically and state.. "suna hai aap so gaein thee".. lol.. yeah.. its called jetlag.. granted the time difference was only 3 hours but still.. when it was 3am there, it was 6am at home.. i'd been up the whole night you know.. Us growing children need their sleep..
lol.. Anyway.. it was a good lot of fun..

The breakfast at the hotel was niiiice.. there were pancakes and waffles and french toast and lots of other nice goodies which i was very attentive to..

and then we all trooped back.. :) so that was New Years..

My life in general is on a roller coaster ride.. in between work and home... karachi & lahore.. its just a whirlwind.. i think the frequency of air travel is permanently affecting my hearing.. i need a full physical.. its so damn cold here and my beds so nice and warm, i have issues dragging myself out of it in the mornings..
My nights begin at 10pm.. the minute i hit the bed i'm out..

Life wasnt always so focused. There was more happening on the periphery once upon a time. Now its just... happening all around me and like the Cairo trip, i seem to be sleeping through it.. sometimes it hits me, how fast life is moving on.. how i dont seem to be a part of it.. its a bit crazy.

But you know what.. sometimes.. when my feet are warm.. :) i'm happy.. the world is nice.. and life is good..

I guess thats as simple as it gets..
love

Princess of the GemWorld
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I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld

Copyright © Fars - FS 2004

Holy FOG!

Ok so its like this... i wake up this morning and look out the window and i CANT EVEN SEE THE BALCONY RAILING!

YEESH! the fog enshrouding Lahore in its soulful depths really came into its own this morning. Bye bye PIA flight schedule.. talk about crazy. It really is.
i mean look at this..


Fog on Mian Mir Bridge, Lahore 24th Dec 2004 © Fariha Shah 

thats like the mian mir bridge in lahore. the fog was so thick you couldnt even see the hoarding properly.


Misty Lahori Streets, Lahore 24th Dec 2004 © Fariha Shah 

and thats the street connecting mall road to jail road. Please note.. no visibility beyond 20 feet..
I mean HOW DO PEOPLE LIVE HERE...
sigh sigh.. Its nice and cold though. i hope the sun comes out for a bit but thinks dont look very promising.. lets see what transpires.. Atleast Lahore has seasons :) spoken like a typical defensive Lahori there.. :) thats the statement i get every time my die-hard Karachi self lashes out.

My loyalty to Karachi has seen alot of tests these past few months. Lahore has rains, small transit times, easy shopping, more parking, ... but somehow the food stuff is still easier to come by in Karachi.. i miss the dossas.. dont get to see them here... im not much into formal dining. I'll take eating off the streets anyday over a restaurant... but i guess you win some you lose some.

My fingers feel frozen. Its getting colder by the minute. I dont know how much longer i can survive this weather.. my bones feel chilled. This inspite of socks shoes, sweater and a shawl. For me Hell would be very very cold.

I'll be off now..
cheerios
Princess of the GemWorld

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I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld

Copyright © Fars - FS 2004

back and forth...

Xmas days are here again... deck the halls with boughs of holly.. tra lalalalalalala.. *sing song tone

Well thats that.. it was about the same time last year that i suddenly stumbled upon the great wide world of blogging. Sheer freak accident that..
I was trying to find out how to spell que sera sera.. and i googled it..
lo and behold there was a website by that name.. so i went to the website .. and well.. with Sarah Brown (not a distant relative to charlie brown) once you start reading you dont want to stop.. and amazingly the one post that i did find was one of the most nicest one.. she'd asked everyone who came to her blog to list down that one sentence, which if said by the right person at the right time would just make the world perfect for you.. the post was called Longing .. the 200 comments that accompanied it were worth a read too.. and i was hooked..

after reading through two years of her life, i was inspired enough to start the shebang on my own.. so i discovered what blogging was all about.. with help from umy, my underworld friend in the depths of cyberspace, we set about exploring the myriad of ways in which you can.. ahem.. format a blog...

whaaaat! formatting is highly crucial i'll have you know.. it was a fun process..
at the end of the day, ive basically given up on making the blog look good cause seriously i just cant be bothered... i just love writing stuff on it.. even if no one comes to read it except me :)

The last month has been funny in terms of travel schedules. I've realized that if i learn the art of traveling "light" ..(like how the hell do people do that anyway).. my life would be a little easier..

I tried it.. i hated it.. i always feel like ive left something behind when i have forced my self to proverbially travel light..

I am happy to report that my idiosyncrasies contribute greatly to lowering the stress levels in my workplace. The biggest laughs of the year can easily be attributed to my antics in and around work... the latest being a 1-day trip to dubai on which i traveled with no less than 3 peices of luggage. My darling colleagues will leave out the fact that they ended up borrowing stuff from me since they'd traveled too light for words.. *humph.. :) see see theres a method to my madness..
but it was hilarious enough for them to take pictures of the scene with their mobilephone cameras and giggle at leisure.. i however *superior eyebrows raised look there.. had the last laugh ...

That trip was fun.. it was out of the blue.. and they didnt have our room ready at the jumeirah beach hotel so while i would have quietly stood by and let em do whatever, my colleague decided that wasnt the right approach and very politely expressed her displeasure to the management which has us being upgraded to a suite... with the MOST amazing view of the Burj Ul Arab.. even though we'd been up half the night in trasit and were dead tired, it was still an experience to remember..
This would however be the first trip to Dubai on which i didnt find the time to have a Burger King Whopper.. i had my caramel machiato from starbucks.. but no whopper.. incredible, i know..

After that ive had these mad trips to Kuala Lampur & Bangkok.. and whats scaring me the most is that once you enter into that transit mentality, everything merges into a fuzzy picture where you dont notice any distinguishing characteristics.. and that is damn scary..
when i am in another country, i want to KNOW that i'm in another country through all my senses.. smell, taste, touch, sight, hearing.. all of them.. and being tired because of too much airline travel deadens your senses and you stop feeling all the sensations and then a new place turns into just another place..

Thats when you start losing your sense of wonder.. a word of advice.. DONT EVER LET THAT HAPPEN.. once it happens, its very difficult to shake it off.. no matter how tired you are.. or how long you've traveled to get somewhere, before you leave the airport, wash your face, brush your teeth, open up your ears.. and THEN step out into the atmosphere and really soak it in..

This advice is easy to dispense.. its hard to live upto..

:) anyway cheers to all.. its truly winter season here.. life is good.. lets see what happens next..

I started writing this post with the thought that i'd share what had transpired on my last few mad trips which has had me spending more time in airports then on ground.. but i suddenly got sidetracked and now i've lost my train of thought..

take care all
Princess of the GemWorld
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I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld

Copyright © Fars - FS 2004

Livin on the edge...

Like seriously guyz.. you wont believe what i did a couple of weekends ago...
ahem.. yeah.. well.. i dont know how i managed it.. truth to tell, i didnt actually jump off as much as being pushed off the 50 meters high platform at the top of the tower.. (165 feet in layman terms)

Yes indeedy do kiddies.. i did an actual factual bungee jump.. :) and i have the certificate of courage to prove it..
I wouldnt have believed myself capable of such daring, in fact the only thing going through my head was .. just a few more seconds and then i'll be on solid ground.. except...
the trick with the bungee cord is that its Elastic.. *waggling eyebrows..
so you go down screaming like a banshee once feeling like its a free fall to no where.. till the cord stretches and you realize that something is tied to your feet and keepintg you from crashing into the water beneath you..
and you're thinking.. hey this wasnt half bad you know..

AND THEN.. the cord being EElastic.. RECOILS...
takes you back up to about 40 meters.... you go up quietly enough thinking heh i've done this already.. and THEN...
YOU FALL DOWN ALL OVER AGAIN.... my second blood curdling scream was worth a place in the Horrors hall of fame.. truly!
and then :) of course.. there was the third... fall & scream..

after they've been satisfied that you've truly lost your wits, they go about trying to bring you down.. so the cage lowers slowly with you hanging upside down with a whole new perspective of the world. they stick out a pole, you grab hold as fast and hard as humanely possible and literally start climbing down it before they can even pull you in .. then they lower you down and pull off the elastic and the ankle padding and you are left trying to hold down the blood rush and the shaking in your legs as they try to regain their familiarity with the ground and gravity in general..

I had burst capillaries in my cheeks... i SWEAR.. i did... and thanks to the team with me, i got a full technicolor video of my leap of faith above the grand horizon of Chiang Mai... just watching it makes my toes curl all over again.. brrrrr...

So thats that.. My Bungee Jumping Experience.. this from a person who doesnt even get on roller coasters..

Its the getting your feet off the platform that the toughest.. i got harnessed, in the cage, and all the way up there without panicking.. it was once your standing on that little platform looking out across the sky and you suddenly feel the rush of falling through air ... jumping into nothingness.. and thats just while you're standing up there.. that well.. i for one started hyperventilating.. ahem.. i'm not proud of it but there you have it..

I was standing there white knuckled, gripping the railing for all its worth for a good 20 minutes which forced my jump master Wit to finally ask if he could lower the cage.. but .. i dont know what drove me.. actually i do.. i'd just rather not say it.. finally Wit took matters into his own hands and told me to hold my arms out while he slowly leaned me over and ... theres no less scary way of saying this.. DROPPED ME INTO OBLIVION.... aaaaarrrrrrrrreeeeeeeecccccchhhh... *something between a aargh and a screech..
My scream ... WAS scary.. :)

So that was that :)

On another extremely happy note... I found the Johanna Lindsey book about Jeremy Malory in Kuala lampur.. we've collectively waited about 12 years for his book after totally falling in love with the character back then.. and it was amazing.. :) loved it.. i had to take the train to another station to get my hands on the last copy they had but it was worth it :)

Also had the good fortune to find part two of the Jarku Ruus Trilogy: Tanequil by Terry Brooks.. now ive read two .. cant wait for the third one.. he should really write and publish them faster... i mean aaaarrrrghhh... that was also the last copy they had ... am i lucky or what

Anyway :) gotta run.. its cold in lhr now brrr.. even with the sun out and all..

cheers
Princess of the GemWorld

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I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld

Copyright © Fars - FS 2004

Jingle Bells...

Its hard to believe that its the end of 2004...

Like so many other things in my life the changing of the years has also stopped leaving an impression.. i remember the transition in 1999 vividly.. the years to follow the same sense of wonder pervaded my mind each time the clock would tick over the dawn of a new numeric year.. 2004 was the last year to do so.. 2005 will be lost in the crowd of other mundane events in life..

Its weird.. i sometimes feel like my childlike sense of wonder is slipping away.. the inherent excitement in everything.. a new place.. an international trip.. shopping.. food... sometimes i feel bereft of it.. i think its a result of the barriers ive created around my heart to shelter it from the pain of disappointment.. having developed a highly blase outlook on life.. nothing upsets me anymore.. nearly nothing.. there isnt anything that i can not face with faith.. but.. somehow the quest to keep my inner sanctum safe and ripple free somehow seems to have diluted the intensity of feeling within my soul..

or maybe for the first time in my life.. i may have experienced fear.. and to counter that detachment proceedings were carried out.. i still have faith in the Almighty.. but somehow i have a feeling that my human side decided to take additional precautions in case he decides to test me.. so it put up additional safety nets all around me to close me off from adverse reactions..

i dont know which is worse.. feeling everything or not feeling at all.. i guess once you make that distinction you can go forward either fully prepared for the consequences or fully safe from everything .. including happiness.. its a mind boggling dilemmna.. :)

Lifes ok.. i have tried to be on a protein diet.. for some reason i found it to be pretty easy.. i guess that makes me a bonafide carnivore.. bring on the meat baby.. lol.. but in all seriousness.. its damn easy.. unless you travel on the 6pm PIA economy plus flight.. in which the entire in-flight meal comprises of 3 portions of carbs.. :)
i had half a McArabia.. i like it.. also had.. umm.. a damascus ka shwarma.. thought it was drier than usual.. had a silver spoon ka chicken roll.. had a chicken dosa from something bbq in khadda market.. had some nice italian food at the Sicilian.. the seafood soup was also pretty nice..

my experience of the world as i keep reiterating is defined through my consumption occassions.. if i dont consume and taste.. it leaves very little of an impression on me.. :) cant help it thats just the way it is.

Ok me be off.. take care me lovelies.. although im not a sea faring person per se.. but i like it..

cheerios
Princess of the GemWorld
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I dare to dream... so sue me.. :p
GemWorld

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