Blog... thy will be done...

My blogs been ignored. Massively.
Not good. couldnt help it. Went from one transition to the next without even thinking about it. Atleast right now the mind is still working. Things seem to be making sense.. i can only pray they continue to do so. Life in general is as simple as one wants to perceive it as being..

Hence, simple perception... here i come..
Lahore.. is nice. Its .. umm... nice. I have no other words to describe it. Its quite... nice. Its old. Makes me nostalgic. Makes me feel 8 years old again and back in 3rd grade... that wasnt such a great time.. i barely had any friends.. and i'm pretty sure i was still a wannabe.. and once i even got into trouble in school during the annual mela...

Lahore was great back in 86 & 87... there was a bhutta wala .. the proper raakh mein bhunain huay bhuttay... right outside my Cathedral school on Abid Majeed Road.. there was the horse n cattle show at fortress every year and the Tattoo show.. which was basically fireworks.. i dont know WHY they called it Tattoo.. but there you had it.. Lahore was the city where i first saw Superman, Supergirl & the entire Star Wars trilogy and fell irrevocably in love with Luke Skywalker as all females of the time were apt to doing... Lahore was the place where i learnt to ride my bike... my nana taught me... he promised he'd hold on to the end of it and then let go.. i didnt even realize i was on my own till i'd already been around the lawn once.

We used to live in Cavalry Grounds.. Lahore was much smaller then.. now its bigger. more cars. more traffic. Much better traffic as compared to the last decade. They really cracked down hard on the loony lahori drivers.. it wasnt even funny how badly the Lahoris liked to drive... ainj lagda si abhi abhi pind toun aaein aan... sorry.. thats all the punjabi i know so far. I will however endeavor to improve, trying not to sacrifice my urdu in the middle of it all :)

Life is taking on a whole new perspective. Everything seems really far away. And yet really close. But nothing seems to register except the enormous amount of learning still ahead of me. It numbs the mind to all else because theres no space left for any other data.

i have no plans for the future right now. The future is limited to the next 5 minutes. In some ways thats a bad thing, as always i lack long term vision :) but in some ways its the most freeing sensation in the world. I'm so tired i cant even feel tired anymore.. its quite refreshing...

Contrary to prior expectations i seem to be surviving heavily on mineral water and *big surprise.. have as yet to consume any carbonated soft drink. H20 and Caffiene fixes... thats my idea of decadence. Yeah yeah... im a loser.. soo what!

ok ... sighh.. back to hit the books.. would you believe my first work day was 12 hours straight.. on top of which i cant sleep past 6 am in lahore.. so i'll start walking from tomorrow early morn.. but at this rate... umm.. i guess stress induced weight loss could be a good thing, unless its accompanies by dark circles, hair loss, and silver strands... which i'm sure wont take too long to come along....
whatever! you know what... bring it on!... bring it all on... eik hi dafa Allah mian key paas ja key whine karoun gi :)
for the rest of you... keep praying i survive with a happy go lucky smile on my face..

take care fwiendsies
cheers

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