Psuedo Reality.....

I had to reorganize my belongings. Feels like i'm back in the army life.. when you find out the posting orders have arrive and you run to your room of 2 or so odd years and take that one last look around, quickly taking inventory of what stays and what goes...

Came across the.. oh i dunno... 16 ODD DIARIES that i've maintained since 1990 when i first discovered of joy of writing about my self to myself... seems a bit twisted.. but then life usually is.. ;)

Going through Diary #2 or 3 i found some cards sent by this guy to this girl i used to know.. apparently they mustve been given to me for safekeeping so she wasnt caught in the act.. weird. dumped em in the trash.. This dairy was tan in color and from the Institute of Bankers in Pakistan.

It was also one of the most escessively boring diaries i have had the misfortune to scribble in. I mean this was my life.. and it was boooRING,...Starting in end October in 91, it covered mundane events and happenings that basically made me recall teenage angst and i seriously wanted to torch the whole thing. I think the only salvgeable parts are all the dialogues of M*A*S*H i have penned down as a summarization of the day... So in between the "went to Young Ones with my cousins.." "went to buy jeans with my cousins.." "went to Fosters finatra with my cousins..."... OK OK.. so it was 1991... waddaya want from me anyway...

M*A*S*H & Bangers - Snippets
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Trapper: So how was it
Pierce: It was great
Trapper: How was the major
Pierce: She was really great
Trapper: You dope! from the top.
Pierce: Noooo.. it wasnt like that. Your mind is in the gutter!
Trapper: Cant help it. it's attached to the rest of my body.
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Pierce: Margaret, you start without me
Margaret: But i've never cut open a man before
Pierce: well go ahead. Why should i have all the fun.
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Trapper & frank are arguing and Henry tells Frank to shut up
Frank: well he started it
Henry: Frank, if you dont stop so help me, i'll write it down in your record that you dont work and play well with others..
(Trapper is walking out behind Henry and quickly sticks his tongue out at Frank while walking out)
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Radar walking into the Swamp: Sir, can i sleep here. Its so quiet.
Pierce: Sure Radar
Frank: Thats it!?! You're not going to tuck him in and read him a bedtime story.
Trapper: Radar do you want me to tuck you in and tell you a bedtime story
Radar: oh no sir
Trapper: Thats it, frank.
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Radar: Can i stay sir?
Trapper: Sure you can sleep in Hawkeyes bunk
Frank: whaaaat?!? These are officers quarters!
Trapper: Try to snore importantly Radar
Radar: Yessir..
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Henry: No body went to see the movie tonight? It was a sherlock Holmes.
Trapper: The butler did it.
Frank: Awww... i was going to go see it tomorrow.
Trapper: I was joking frank....... (pause) the maid did it!
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Klinger: Whats for breakfast?
Radar: Last nights Dinner.
Klinger: That was yesterdays lunch.
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Jurrasic Park
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Malcolm: God made the world. God created dinosaurs. God made man. Man destroyed God. Man created dinosaurs.
Sadler: Dinosaurs eat man. Women inherit the world.

1991 was the year of changes.. That was the year Abu got posted to Chitral and .. sighhhh.. the Chitralis afraid of innocent little me corrupting their boys declined the opportunity of allowing me to study in their school.

So me and ami had to pack our bags and move to Karachi and stay with Nani nana.. it was nice.. Johnny mamu Saba mami and their 3 adorable daughters.. all under 8 yrs of age.. were staying there too at the time and Saba mami is a great cook... (to date :) ... I had to start DHA Phase 4.. That Den of evil which had 3... GET THIS... THREE MONTHLY TESTS.. PER SUBJECT... PER MONTH... it was intolerable cruelty.. i HATED it.. Also the fact that i didnt really know anyone in a school in which the girls had literally been through most of their lives together was a bit of a turn off.. The big song of the time was Bryan Adams "Everything I do".. i still remember being in Chitral and tuning in to Radio Russia and listening to the Russian top 20 and the BBC top 20.. and this song remained on the top for like 20 weeks on the BBC top charts.. they were literally about to retire it.. But Chitral was lovely.. with polo matches and stuff.. more later on that..

I recall taking Cooking/baking as the extra curricular in 9th grade.. we got to eat everything made in the demonstrations ... lol.. There are wisps of memories of throwball matches.. of the ultimate teenage wannabe complex... of the "group" syndrome.. talking nonstop about ridiculous stuff... Silence of the lambs... being hooked on Miami Vice since NTM was a new thing at the time.. There were walkathons.. the most famous thing to ever hit karachi.. i think i literally went to each walkathon held between 1990 and 1994.. it was such a big deal back then :)... Dil hai keh manta nahin came out and was an immediate hit...

The trip to the Fosters Finatra in the newly opened FTC building at the time which was still being constructed was a memorable one.. it was a family event.. following the food me and my little cousin zak went out exploring the under construction struction.. when we came across some suspicious looking security guards on the 5th floor they were immediately tagged as being the CIA.. we were the FBI and our remaining rabble of cousins was identified as the KGB.. both groups being supremely avoidable.. it was a chase worthy of Americas Most Wanted with utility closets being used as secret bases... the fact that the 5th floor had no walls on all sides and immediately overlooked the graveyard lent the whole situation a highly sinister feel.. Kimmun the ever famous chinese restaurant next to karachi broast was a favorite family haunt.. i think its closed now.. 10th grade dawns all too soon.. with snippets about sumnmer school.. board exams.. and.. umm.. Flash .. yeah the TV show.. *rolling eyes at the lameness of it all

Remington Steele was another life changer.. i mean... maaaaannnn... have you SEEN Pierce Brosnan in that show.. i mean Stephanie Zimbalist went bye bye and he made it sooo big.. would anyone have thought.. it was all due to "Attacking Mystery" :)There were afternoons spent in DCL(Defence Central Library).. it had just opened.. we literally had picnics between the book laden shelves with tea and sandwiches.. all highly illegal... That was the time of the piyala cut hair style for little boys.. and then all of a sudden we shifted houses... abu got shifted back to Karachi and we moved into the Highrise Army Aparments behind Avari.. it was a great place.. started DHA College for Women... heheh.. that women bit always tickled me.. made new friends.. parted ways with old ones.. the world expanded a litte bit.. there are stories from that era that still leave me breathless with laughter.. lol.. Chitral had introduced me to satellite TV and the tradition was continued in Highrise...

I was more or less addicted to Santa barbera, Bold and the beautiful, Baywatch ;), and M*A*S*H.. On the 10th Jan 1994, we learned that abu would be retiring by the end of the year.. i never realized how much that news had impacted me at the time.. looking at the diary entry it comes back to me in a rush.. "I feel like a hundred years old. Abus advance notice came. Its not the phone i'm worried about. Its not the fact that i kinda like my stupid room. That i'll have to take off all my posters. That i'll have to find a video shop, a new hotel, no more bake n take. Its not the sweeper, the batman or the coaster. Its not the f***in view from the balcony. its not the fact that we dont have a place to go or a house in which to put all our stuff in. Its not the fact that there is a tennis court downstairs, a place to park, a place to walk, a bathroom, a laundry room... compared with the fact that the house in Askari3 doesnt even have a Tv lounge.."

In between readings of the Spanish Bride by Georgette Heyer and dancing with joy when Oksana Grishuk & Evgeny Platov won the 1994 Olympic Ice Dancing Gold.. life slowly settled into a routine.. "6th march 1994: i get pretty melodaramatic sometimes. I look at my black diary and i see Alan Alda holding it and saying.. Fariha this is your life... Now i know what an autobiography feels like... 3 and a half years of TV programs, pointless excursions, crying fits, tantrums... no achievements, no glory.. nothing i can rave about.. "

"14th june 94: I'm upset with the exams coming up and the fear that i'll flunkofy majorly. why do people say majorly when a colonel is bigger than a major.. shouldnt it be colonally.. But i guess that gets coverted to colossal.. but you cant say colossally i think which is very sad. Today in M*A*S*H Radar goes home. It was so sad. Pierce couldnt even say goodbye properly and just saluted him from the operation theatre and radar left his teddy bear for Pierce. Sherm was crying when he hugged Radar goodbye. Wounded come in and when he takes his last look around the camp its empty. They had a cake and everything for him and it was awful & the mess tent was empty.."

i lived in a world dominated by television.. a psuedo reality.. but it was nice.. sometimes.. no most times.. it still is... my relationship with reality has always been a rocky one.. i dont think its going to improve anytime in the near future..

I think i can safely burn this little leather bound book... anyone care for a bonfire?

Princess of the GemWorld

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