Realm of the Soul: February 2007

Our Lahore office is HOT. i mean you start walking around and i atleast start sweating. And this without any heating being on..

Me n Emkay have started turning on the AC in our glass box to keep from melting away into mush. sigh sigh... then it gets too cold.. and the vent is right on top of my half of the glass box so guess who gets the brunt of the cold north wind..

i've been re-reading my Enid Blyton collection... just read The Enchanted Wood, The Magic Faraway Tree and The Folk of the Faraway Tree. It was delicious... the land of goodies, the land of take what you want, the land of tea parties, the land of treats, The land of birthdays, oh joy oh joy... i loved going back to all those places again... now im reading the Wishing Chair, The Wishing Chair Again & The Wishing Chair Adventures.. its not as much fun as the Enchanted wood series... a little bit more of trouble and tension.. but its nice as well..

Also i go to Sunday bazaar every week trying to located my lost collection of Enid Blyton that got lost when i lost my crate of booksies all those years ago.. sighh...

I miss abu.. his face flashes before my eyes all the time... his strong jaw.. his eyes.. his smile.. i miss him so much.. i consciously stop myself from thinking too much about him not being there anymore... so it always feels like he's still here... i cant believe he'll never hold my child in his arms.. i cant believe it wont be him saying the azaan in its ears.. what am i going to do without him..

i feel numb sometimes and sometimes i feel like reaching out and hugging the world.. i miss my friends... we're all so busy all the time.. its always nice to meet up with sara.. its like being back in college...

the ultimate irony for both me and fais is that both our best friends have gotten married and are off to greener pastures.. its seriously unsettling.. like being set adrift in a stormy sea and having to reach out to unfamiliar floating twigs to try to stabilize yourself...

sighh... Lahore is great... it ws foggy when we landed.. i ran into someone i had worked with when Als and i had done the very first internship of our lives in 95 in SCB.. after 12 years... can you imagine.. life really moves on and just carries you along with it..

its kinda lovely that way.. i have soo many little little things to take care off on saturday... DACC bills to pay, earings to pick up, NADRA to visit, DHA, PIA, Registrars, darzi, state bank... sighhhh.... i like having a to do list, but it can be overwhelming sometimes, when you basically have only one working day to get it all done and a supremely sleepy hubby..

:) oh well.. how does readers digest put it.. All in a day's work ...

Cheerios

Princess of the GemWorld

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