Wednesday, May 13, 2009

another day another cookie

i had one cup of tea and i saw cookies being taken into another room. i wanted cookies. i didnt get those cookies (nice cadbury ones). i did however get a shortcake cookie from a good samaritan. so now im happy.


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Monday, May 11, 2009

Realm of the Desert

I feel the urge to blog again. But i am undecided whether the expression should be limited to GemWorld or should there be a parallel expression on facebook. I don't use facebook that much. I had actually stopped feeling alienated in life after my daughter was born and so lost my urge to expel my emotions through another medium, but ever since arriving in the maelstrom of this desert, i have felt the urge return with a force. I am feeling the overwhelming need to reach out and have a meaningful conversation with someone and I cant find anyone physically present who wants to listen to me. Everyone here has their own stories to voice and like me no one to voice them to. It's like being surrounded by a cacophony of voices which all merge together to just become meaningless noise since no one can be bothered to pay attention. Its made me feel a bit sad.

I hadnt had time to feel sad in a while now. It's been a funny experience having it return. Or maybe it's just hormones. I fine myself welling up watching Star Plus while my husband stares with unrepentant distaste and vocalizes his amazement at why I watch the soaps in question. Because it's mindless I guess. U don't have to use a single iota of your brain for this kind of entertainment. I have however realized that my threshold for negativity has reached new lows. I can't stand a second of negativity and have literally been confined to watching the Disney channel to ensure a happy frame of mind. So we have Hannah Montana n Wizards of Waverly place while my nearly two year old angel shouts ca-toon from the sidelines forcing me to change channels mid show. The thing I dreaded the most has finally happened. We now have another contender for the remote control. Lol.

I spent yesterday fixing up the DVD player and after buying a really long AV cable finally sat down and re-watched Jaane tu ya jaane na. Kya unt movie hai yaar. I love it. Everyones expressions, dialogue deliveries, the narrative, the pace, the positivity, the humor. That's my movie for forever. I will always love it, cherish the images and the wonderful happy positivity it leaves my mind floating in. The high was perfect and low wasn't too low or too long. It\s officially my new second favorite desi movie after Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. I haven't watched it enough to replace KKKH in my sentiments as yet. But since I brought that and not KKKH, chances are that the replacement may happen sooner rather than later. Also I heard they are making a sequel to JTYJN, which is awesome! I hope it comes out really soon.

My new connection doesn't have GPRS but apparently all the malls have wifi. Not that I've noticed. I'm generally too busy moaning about my aching feet or keeping Raiyna in check to do anything on the phone while malling. Malling is a full time activity after all. Yesterday after being here for 23 days I finally had my first Burger King Junior Whopper (with cheese, hold the onions). It was good. I can't believe I'm saying this but I think I'm slowly losing my urge for food. It's happened ever since I got here. There's too much of it and it all tastes nearly the same. I've only had one Caramel Machiato since I got here  and end up usually ordering English Breakfast Tea (with HOT Milk) whenever I go to Starbucks. I don't know what's happening to me. Is this called old age? Don't think I'm liking it much.

I have found this little canteen at the Belhasa driving school and I go there after every class and have a cheese omelette sandwich on toast with fresh cucumbers n lettuce in it with a piping hot cup of tea. All for DHS 6. Its my favorite meal of the day. Sitting around watching people, learner drivers, instructors, etc., walk in and out busy in their lives, it makes me feel more alive then I do anywhere else in this city as yet. I guess it's also because here everyone nearly is in transit. Very few people would call it home. For everyone it's kind of being on a really long business trip. Numbs the mind after a while. I'm going to give it a fair chance. I'll let everyone around me try to prove they're human and not machines running on automode. I miss home. I miss mobilink, my domestic help, my mom, my dadijan, my car, my driver, my office people in both cities, my internet, my printer, my scanner, my tailor, my mochi,... Dear God i miss my sunday bazaar. I miss my dvd store and my beauty works. I miss chatkharey, CTC, aylanto, ciao.. I even miss bbq 2nite. Oh and I also miss liberty books and my entire family, cousins, uncles, aunts, grandparents.. I am seriously homesick and I thought only Raiyna was feeling that way. But she's not the only one. I'm feeling the same way. I just hadn't acknowledged it till I started writing this blog. May Allah do what is best for all of us. Cheerios...

Princess of the Gemworld



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