Awake

I'm awake. But i dont like it. I want to go back to numb sleep. I realize i've been numbly sleeping for a long time. It's nice.. and painless. Awake is a whole different ballgame.

All of a sudden i'm feeling. Sometimes the feeling supercedes the need to breathe. Then the brain screams.. and the lungs expand. My mind is not the issue. Its the physical realm. It's trying to suck me in.. trying to dig it's sharp claws into my weak weak flesh.. it couldn't do that while i was asleep. Now i'm awake and vulnerable.. open to suggestion.. to the temptation of experiencing something new.. like a new taste.. a new flavor. Its the peak of existence come to collect its dues. Today we stand at the fork.

The fork is presented mid life. Its when u choose.. you choose a realm. You choose between the celestial and the physical.. between the unseen vs. the seen.. between belief and physical reality. The choice is not clear or easy. Either faith wins or fact. Its never both.

And no matter what path you choose to tread.. the sacrifice is always soul shattering. The sacrifice demands blood of the heart or the soul.. but blood shall flow.. it shall be spilt. The tears are mandated. It's a rite of passage. And the Almighty silently watches.

He's watching to see whether our love for him, our faith in his heaven.. whether that can stand the test of time.. whether we safeguard our souls for his hereafter.. or do we finally reject all that we have learnt about heaven and hell and judgement and forgiveness and just focus on the here and now and instant gratification.

It seems black and white doesnt it. You've obviously never heard a hip hop song and swayed to its beat 😊 life is so beautiful.. a kaleidescope of mesmerising colors.. shapes.. textures.. sounds.. tastes.. all you have to do is reach out and touch it.. one touch.. one taste..
"Twas grace that brought me here thus far... and grace will bring me home.. "

The innermost realm

#TheAlmightysDailyMasterpiece #nofilter 

I wake up everyday with a deep seated yearning in my soul. It runs deep.. into the darkest part of my being where no light has ever shone. I never went that far into my inner self before.. its like coming face to face with a stranger. I dont recognize the setting.. the place.. myself. Its as if i have never known my real self.. never known the depths or extent of emotion that i could experience.. as if my entire existence has been spent encased in a shell.. behind a wall.. numb.. safe.. from everyone and everything. Why would i change that?

Its not rational or logical.. both traits that i have always held in high regard. Thats when the awareness dawns.. this other part of me has no relation to logic, rationality.. or even reality. Its like a strange new realm in my soul.. a new dominion screaming to be explored.. but demanding a sacrifice.. as always. A sacrifice that requires an outright rejection of all that i held to be true thus far.. and its been a long thus far. A sacrifice requiring tears of blood.. for it would have the power to rip away everything.. no more status quo.. no certainty.. no going through the motions anymore.

It would herald a new era of experiencing the world.. destroyed from the ground up.. decimated in the process of birth of this new realm.. a realm which i would have to spend the time i have left in this life building brick by brick. The questions abound.. is it worth it..? An ephemeral moment  of unlimited joyous celebration of life.. tasting the very fibre of existence so fully that it explodes out of every atom that comprises your soul.. waking up to possibilities heretofore unexplored and unexperienced.. being whole.. free.. immune to judgement.. however, carrying the risk of being a nomad in the physical realm of reality.. of losing all that ever cared in any form and not gaining anyone that would last forever.. isnt forever supposed to be forever? Why isnt it?

I understand now, as i pull out of this secret part of my soul, why immortality was not granted by the Almighty. Its his mercy to release our souls from the pain of existential want imposed upon us by nature.. cest la vie.. #sunrise

Shine

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Final Chapter.. and finally.. the big guy grabbed Mr. Sun by the scruff of its neck n pulled 'im right outta hiding.. throwin' 'im headfirst into the murky blue depths of the morning sky.. welcome to the new world!

They say life begins anew every morning.. so even if ur soul is shattered and ur heart lies broken in a million unmendable pieces.. know that by the time the sun rises tomorrow.. the pain will fade.. it'll be a glimmer of a memory.. and you WILL bury it.. deep inside.. until you forget it exists. You WILL move on. You WILL forget all the associations you had built around the mirage in ur head of that perfect life with that perfect someone.. life is not kind. Its not meant to be. Life is a trial. Its a test. And we.. the silly miscast players.. keep seeking perfection and balance and continuity.. immortality!

Nothing lasts. Not people.. not things.. not time.. Nothing! The inescapable truth is.. you are as irrelevant today to the world at large, as you were the day you were born.. as you will be the day you end. However, the human psyche cant deal with that reality. It HAS to feel important.. relevant. It HAS to feel like it matters.. to someone.. to anyone. And so it spends its entire existance.. searching.. for that elusive joy of being one with the so-called other half.. being complete and whole. What a myth! What a farce!

Expecting so much from another incomplete soul! What a sad sad recipe for disaster.. Search within. If it doesnt lie in you.. well.. you're screwed 😊 love yourself.. ignite the inner joy.. remove the negatives from your environs.. and learn to shine.. ALL by yourself. No one else gives a shit. Good morning 😊

#TheAlmightysDailyMasterpiece #nofilter #farsgemworld #dawn #morning #sunrise #burjkhalifa #dubai #mydubai #igersdubai #igersuae #standingwitness #glory #gold #blue #orange #life #buenos #bonjour #bongiorno #salam #sabahalkhair #goodmorning #goodstart #earlyriser

Crushed

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The morning always starts with such bright possibilities.. then slowly life crushes the heart and squeezes the joy out of the soul.. someone up there is a total sadist.. just sayin.. #TheAlmightysDailyMasterpiece #farsgemworld #dubai #mydubai #igersdubai ##sunrise #sun #morning #buenosdias #bonjour #sabahalkhair #salam #goodmorning #goodstart

Passage

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The weather has officially changed 😊 chilly breezes and a hot cuppa tea. Can you see the steam? I tried but it i dont think i quite cracked it 😊 winters is always a strange season for me.. its a time of newness and change.. there is always some shift in the universal algorithm as it applies to my universe and it always happen in this time of death, decay and subsequent rebirth. Its a time of dreams.. of fantasies.. of the intermingling of dreams with reality.. of hope that we can have all that we desire and the world exists naught but for our benefit.. its a time of creation.. of feeling powerful and conversely powerless.. having the steel to reach out and take and being helpless in the face of the overwhelming desire to take it.. It. The elusive shimmer of explosive joy.. of feeling complete every morning.. of a wholeness that initiates from the soul and flows outwards until it fills every dark corner of your spiritual being with light... of that piece of you that was missing.. what would one label it? Selfishness? Survival instinct? The hand of destiny? ... what does one do on a crossroads where the choice to take the desired path is not solely in ones hands.. where the cost is vague and unclear... where certainty in any form doesnt exist.. but you are given a moment of joy so pure.. so complete.. that your soul's yearning for experiencing even a sliver of that wholeness supercedes any sense of logic one has ever possessed.. like bungee jumping.. or trekking to Everest.. or taking a leap of faith into the unknown.. status quo? Jumpshift the paradigm?.. Budha said the greatest mistake is thinking that we have time.. 😊 if i think like that, i'd be on a plane right now.. ahem.. flying to florida to see Hogwarts!! #dreams #winter #death #rebirth #desire #faith #joy #J #life #choices #sunrise #chilly #tea #dailyteascape #steam #love #soul #spiritual #farsgemworld #nofilter #sun #gold #teacup #crossroads #statusquo

Flight of dawn

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Its the split of a second.. a gift from the Almighty.. a glimpse of dawn.. the rising sun.. never ceases to fill one with wonder. Each day a new masterpiece.. enjoy in peace.. #TheAlmightysDailyMasterpiece #farsgemworld #nofilter #flydubai #dubai #mydubai #airport #plane #dawn #sunrise #sky #clouds #blue #gold #dubaiairport #igersdubai #igersuae #J

Karak liquid joy

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The oh-so-importanto morning cuppa.. @istecantshay cardamom karak.. sigh.. sometimes hot sweet liquid joy makes the universe disappear into oblivion.. for a infinitesimal moment in time.. that split second shard of time is all yours.. to cherish.. absorb.. delight in.. there is no judgement.. there is no one.. nothing.. peace...
#dailyteascape #istecanatshaycafe #dubai #mydubai #farsgemworld #nofilter #morning #cuppa #cupoftea #peace #karakchai #karak @karakwala

Perception vs Reality

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Rose streaks ran across the pre-dawn skyline.. i went for a morning walk and gulped in breaths of fresh air.. well as fresh as it can get.. and cleared the mind.. thought of space.. orions's belt.. the universe.. how the Almighty was probably contemplating the future of his multiverse.. how one little swirl in his kaleidescope of color was enough to change the trajectory.of reality and everything we knew to be true.. how the truth is only what we believe it to be.. how our perception defines our reality... how our reality is slave to perception.. how we go around in circles and never really come out of the vicious cycle.. but at the end of the day... cést la vie...
#cestlavie #life #dawn #twilight #daybreak #clouds #burjkhalifa #dubai #mydubai #igersdubai #farsgemworld #nofilter #rose #streaks #truth

Random risings

A collection of sunrises..  and sunsets

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Astro time shooting stars

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First time EVER shooting stars!! #bucketlist .. #alshawka dam.. a sea of skies full of stars.. my ratio a.k.a. the Southern Cross alias Orion's Belt.. my favorite constellation in the galaxy.. i still remember the day i looked up and saw a gold star on one side and a silver one on the other with three stars in the middle and christened it my ratio.. right upto the day i was showing off to my uncle (a merchant mariner) and explaining how i discovered the ratio.. he looked up said hmmm ahhhh yes.. The Southern Cross also known as Orion's Belt.. Canopus, Sirius, Rigel, Aldebaran, Bellatrix and Betelgeuse. Hmm.. well you cant win 'em all. Caught Mo's group lightpainting #astromeetuae 😊 A huge thanks to @nikonmea @madrascala @heraldherrera @kai_takanashi @igersdubai #nikonmea #southerncross #orionsbelt #igersdubai #dubai #mydubai #stars #astro #mountain #dam #sky #nikon #lightpainting #rak #rasalkhaimah #uae #TheAlmightysDailyMasterpiece #farsgemworld

Once upon a time

FarsGemworld

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Once upon a time... there was a little girl... who didnt know what to say.. her mind was in a swirl.. in this day and age.. thats not a good thing.. the world is unforgiving.. and twirls you round in rings.. walking around one day.. at the crack of dawn.. she heard the birdies sing.. and generally carry on.. in the midst of cacophony.. of sounds and sights galore.. she seeked a peace.. a tranquil place.. that she hadnt found before.. she searched and searched.. and stumbled and fell.. dusted herself off.. and began again.. and finally as the sun rose.. glowing fiery and hot.. realization dawned within her.. she found what she sought.. Our peace lies within us.. its the hope embedded within each human soul.. we sometimes lose sight of it.. we lose sight of ourselves.. who we are.. what we stand for.. but our core doesnt change.. our inner strength.. our ability to survive everything that nature throws at us.. with the exception of death.. it remains a vibrating living entity powering our souls. Its always  a new day... always!
#TheAlmightysDailyMasterpiece #dawn #sunlight #sunrise #hope #itsanewday #bongiorno #buenosdias #bonjour #salam #peace #dubai #mydubai #igersdubai #farsgemworld

Survive

Dawn

Once upon a time... there was a little girl... who didnt know what to say.. her mind was in a swirl..
in this day and age.. thats not a good thing.. the world is unforgiving.. and twirls you round in rings..
walking around one day.. at the crack of dawn.. she heard the birdies sing.. and generally carry on..
in the midst of cacophony.. of sounds and sights galore.. she seeked a peace.. a tranquil place.. that she hadnt found before..
she searched and searched.. and stumbled and fell.. dusted herself off.. and began again..
and finally as the sun rose.. glowing fiery and hot.. realization dawned within her.. she found what she sought..

Our peace lies within us.. its the hope embedded within each human soul.. we sometimes lose sight of it.. we lose sight of ourselves.. who we are.. what we stand for.. but our core doesnt change.. our inner strength.. our ability to survive everything that nature throws at us.. with the exception of death.. it remains a vibrating living entity powering our souls. Its always  a new day... always!

#TheAlmightysDailyMasterpiece #dawn #sunlight #sunrise #hope #itsanewday #bongiorno #buenosdias #bonjour #salam #peace #dubai #mydubai #igersdubai #farsgemworld

Truth

The only purpose of a human is to create harmony in the universe..
... harmony..
... with other beings...
... with nature..
... with the earth..
.. till the day we turn to dust and forever attain harmony with the ground we walk on..

That is our purpose.
If everyone alive can acknowledge and deliver on this.. life would be a breeze.

Candles

Scented candles from @bathandbodyworks. There was a sale. I smell like the entire store right now. I LOVE candles. And flames. And their flickering light. And how you can pretend to be a super hero by moving your finger through the flame and say "see i didnt get burnt.. i'm invincible".

The flame's a metaphor for life. While its lit.. you live.. u shine.. the world watches and waits.. then you finally burn out.. flicker and fade.. and that's that. The empty wick gets chucked out. New one takes its place.

The trick is.. while you're burning.. spread the fragrance of love and hope far and wide... so everyone around you benefits. Also fragrance will help keep any negative odours at bay allowing you to actually have some friends..😈 couldnt help it. My warped sense of humor demands to be expressed. I actually know people who have no odour. Lucky buggers.. like the Almighty blesses some with wayyy more than the rest of the odourous masses. 😂

Have a joyous, aromatic day..

#nofilter #bathandbodyworks #dubai #mydubai #candles #flame #light #life #death #burn #vanilla #lavender #sweet #J

Balmy breezes

Literally collapsed on a sofa outside in the @westindubai courtyard.. hence the angle of this shot. This is what i see when i look straight up into the heavens above. Lots of earthly obstruction! There's a balmy breeze. The Almighty is being very kind. The leaves are rustling. Peaceful. Quiet. Tranquil. Humidity factor's going to kill the blow dry... but atleast i have hair to complain about. The sky is a blue.. deep, dark, velvety blue.. wisps of bluish white clouds floating by... the trees are lit with fairy lights.. a small pedestal fan rotates left and right.. breeze picking up. Reminding me of karachi nights.. a lifetime ago... yesterday. The present is so difficult to live in.. the past and the imagined future keep intruding upon the now. But right this moment.. with the breeze, stars, bluesy sky and trees lit with fairy lights.. its a pretty present 😊

I was wearing peep toe heels. My 5/6 yr old looks at them and asks.. "how did you cut two of your toes off without panicking?". 😒 hmmm... life is like an icecream cone.. enjoy it before it melts!

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My place

My place. Boxpark. There are some spots in the world that you just feel like you own. Your dad's shoulder. The space next to your best friend. The bench at the park under your favorite tree. This staircase.

As humans, we are born naturally materialistic. To rise above our natural instincts, we have to fight our DNA and reach for the abstract concepts of joy through giving rather than acquisition. Instant gratification is like a drug though. And hence, when we view the world, alot of the time its through the lens of everything that we can brand as our own.. even the people in our lives are like assets gained and lost. 😊

Its difficult to remember the truth... the transience of the physical realm.. the ever after of the spiritual one. It requires a de-linkage from our long held beliefs of "if i can see, taste and touch, then its real". Its like having to believe in a higher power.. having faith in the unseen.. which many of us do on a daily basis because thats what we were taught.. but we forget that it applies to our wider existence as well.
Love doesnt lay its foundations on owning.. it lays them on giving. That's why it's so hard. It literally goes against the grain of human nature and tries to uplift the spirit from the material to the celestial by asking for selflessness and a lack of expectations.

There arent many souls alive that know how to love like love would like to be manifested.

Rise above.

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Epiphany

One of the weirdest things about life is.. when u suddenly have an epiphany and understand the universe... and STILL fail to understand your self!

😊 in all seriousness, i think we all understand ourselves. We understand our unique combinations of light and dark. We understand our limitations.. our talents and our failings. We are just unable to accept our WHOLE selves. We're unable to accept that ANY part of us can be imperfect.. can be flawed... because as we grow, society nurtures a very healthy distaste for anything less than perfect.

And that distaste is first and foremost directed inward. Because the first being you get to know wholly.. is yourself. So that's the first being that gets hung and massacred at your alter of judgement.

Its sad isn't it?! Our ability to love, is linked to our ability to love ourselves. For to love, you need to give.. to share your soul. And if you already think that soul is flawed, you'll never be able to share it... and you will never love... and hence, in a cruel twist of fate.. never know love in return.

There is still hope... it springs eternal. There are some souls out there that have managed to overcome their fear of their own imperfections.. have accepted them.. they have learnt to love without judgement.. themselves and others...

But they are few and far between... its our luck if we manage to come across one and share a piece of ours with them..  hoping they consider us worthy of sharing a bit of theirs back...

To love.. without expectation.. is the greatest gift you can bestow upon another living being. For in doing so, you have freed yourself from the selfish bonds of human desire.. and you have freed them from the fear of having to payback if they receive... this love will know no bounds.. it will reside in the celestial realm and it will only thrive and grow... endless, fueled by your unselfishness.. and in doing so, the soul.. that poor flawed, imperfect soul.. will be free to be its best self...

To be fair... summiting Everest is probably an easier task...
C'est la vie :)

Ageless Love

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Ageless Love... One of the 1st ever photographs I took with my first ever digital camera 😊 a sony cybershot P700 i think.. back in 2003.. Chicago Architectural Boat Tour.. i spotted this adorable couple enjoying their cruise together. The gentleman's head from the back reminded me of my grandfather.. nana's head looked exactly the same from the back 😊 i had to hold myself back from going over and saying hello... but they looked so happy and content... i didn't want to bother them..

Life is so short.. and love is so rare.. so much so that when u find the pieces of your soul that complete you, you have to absorb them into your soul and cherish them for as long as they let you.

Sometimes, you can't keep them. Sometimes, you may find a piece of yourself in someone but they don't find the same joy in you. Sometimes Life and Nature just want you to remember that the here and now are transient.

The physical realm fades with time.. The love of the soul is spiritual... and hence eternal.. and that's what love truly means.. an invocation of the heart and soul. The body has very little to do with it in the eternal scheme of things.

Here's to finding, to cherishing, to remembering, to nurturing and nourishing, to caring for and loving with abandon every last piece of our souls that we are blessed enough to find... without expectation or recompense.

Remembering though that those that are worth our efforts, will always give back in some form... 😊 * sparkles and stardust everywhere...

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Realization

There is technically no one in the world except I.

Everyone else is a canvas for my actions. They either suffer as a result of my existence or benefit as a result of it.

The Almighty will judge me in isolation. There will be no one speaking on my behalf and no one to stand against me. All would be known and revealed.

Our objective is to ensure that we remain good and true and dont perpetrate any damage against the physical realm.

Doing it.. consistently..  without fail... is another matter altogether!

May the Almighty grant us strength to be strong and true. Till the bitter end.

Buzzzzz

Thats what the world sounds like in my head. All buzzed together.

Sound of an airplane flying overhead. Sent me back to childhood days.. the buzz of excitement associated with airplanes. Imagining where they were going.. what that place would be like.. how cool it would be to go there too.. imagining ourselves travelling there too..

Somehow those sweet memories carry the most weight... their aroma wafts through the corridors of the past whisking in and out of the light.. fluttering softly through my thoughts.. bringing a sweet sense of comfort.. making me want to curl into a little ball and doze off into a blissful nap and wake up in the past...

Reasons

Sometimes we just find ourselves at a point where we are sitting and staring into space and can't find a single reason to do
... ANYTHING!

its weird. Do u clean? Cook? Brush teeth? There's a weird buzzing in the brain which wont let me sit still yet at the same time is rendering me completely directionless.

Cardamom tea? Hmmm... maybe.. just maybe tea is the answer.. do you think?

I could try that. A little later.  Chalo.. atleast one option shortlisted. 😊

I can talk to walls. About the universe. And the galaxies. The walls are good listeners. They don't judge and they don't interrupt. They unfortunately also can't contribute. Although why one would want one's burst of brilliance to be interrupted is a question to ponder at a later stage..

I could become a monk.. take a vow of silence and thereby end all need for intellectual discourse. But then people would think my primary purpose is to listen to THEM.  I don't think that's going to be bearable in the long run.

Ok. So i don't have a solution. Who really does. May i should go exercise?!...

Heheh..  Ok i'm going to go wash my mouth out with chocolate lol..

Cheerios
Princess of the GemWorld

Regret

The theory of what happens when a human becomes  vampire in The Vampire Diaries, is that as a vampire all the emotions are heightened to catastrophic levels. So when u're happy.. you're ecstatic! And when u're sad..  you're suicidal!

Basically, they lose all sense of balance and become a study in extremes.. two opposing polarities forced to inhabit a singular physical form.

Hence, the concept of the humanity switch. Those vampires which have too much compassion as humans, end up getting the short end of the stick since.. well now you need to suck the life force out of someone... and it feels REALLY REALLY CATASTROPHICALLY BAD!!

So these poor oversensitive souls, with seriously low threshholds for emotional pain.... they have the option of flipping their emotional switch to off. Not feel anything anymore. Comfortably numb!

Then its all good.

I think i'm a vampire.

Dust

Sometimes, when I feel lost, I look to the skies to remind me of what I am... a speck in the universe. And then I know my place.. in the dust.
The thing to remember is.. dust is the soil that gives birth to the earth.. dust is the air that swirls up to the skies... dust is dust.
Its what you make of it that determines your fate...

Bucket List

I think about the moment of unbeing alot. Always have. But somehow now the reality.. or the probability of it transpiring seems to be closer.

I've always been a study in extremes. Entrenched too deeply in the physical world while at the same time wandering the extreme wilds of the spiritual realm seeking the truth of human life and existence in general.

Bi-polar? Confused? I don't know. I just know that i love the me God created... even if the rest of his creations find it difficult to accept, understand or appreciate his grand logic of foisting me upon them.

Everything and everyone has a marginal utility.. otherwise you end up being a dead loss weight to society according to my 1st semester BBA economics book (There was an entire graph on this one). I may be the exception to the rule.. as there are prone to be to every rule.

I have zero utility. To anyone. That includes me. Maybe thats why i'm always happy. Why wouldn't i be? There is no reason to be or not to be so may as well be happy in the beingness.

So now as i sit here and think unbeing.. the question of being comes up and i'm fairly confident that to the world at large my being or unbeing are practically equally irrelevant.

I am however relevant to me.. and my ami abu 😊 THIS is why we have blood ties. When all is lost, you still have people who cant forget about you, even if they try!

And with the question of unbeing, comes the list of Things To Do before the unbeing occurs.. The Bucket List.

I would  like to project myself as someone who is a bigger, better person than the one you think i am... but unfortunately.... you are right. I'm just me. And quite irrelevant. Even the bucket list is a bunch of silly things that for some reason became identified as milestones along the highway of life. They're not milestones. They are not inspiring. They're not even well thought through. But they are what they were 20 years ago and  frankly i just stopped thinking about Things To Do Before I Die after having kids... because seriously brushing my teeth before leaving the house became an achievement after that...

Far's Bucket List (circa 1996)
1. Go to a Bonjovi concert (Done)
2. Meet Shahrukh Khan (Done)
3. Meet Brad Pitt (to be fair, this one predates his facial hair growth)
4. Go to a Bryan Adams concert (Done -Twice)
5. See Everest
6. See 5  out of the 7 continents (Done 4 - i have a mental block against frozen landmasses... somehow for me Hell would be very very cold...brrrrr)
7. Paris (Done)
8. Athens (Done - kind of.. but done)
9. Rome (will keep this till the very end)

Far's Bucket List/ How to live whats left of my life guide (revision 2016)
1. Remember to breathe
2. Find a reason to Smile everyday
3. Don't cry ...
4. Be good... atleast try 😉
5. Love.. my way.. all or nothing
6. Live.. full on.. no regrets..
7. Know when to stay .. and when to walk away.. never be dirt! (still working on this one)
8. Help ... someone.. as many times as i can..  small stuff counts..
9. No procrastination! Do everything NOW! Tomorrow never comes!

That's it.
Sweet and simple..
Now lets go get a nice cuppa tea (delivering on #2 definitely and #9 😊)

Abu used to say.. Life is simple. We complicate it.
It really is. As simple as a cup of tea and a laptop with 200 pictures needing to be filed..
Going.. going... gone!

Cheerios
Princess of the GemWorld

Dreams

Once upon a time
There was a little girl
Who dreamt of flight
With wings unfurled

But as time passed
Reality seeped through
The fabric of dreams
Woven and threw
Her desires to the ground
Shattering to bits
The whimsical murmers
Of the fantasies within

Hope not lost
Courage not drained
She lifted her head
Her spirit remained

A voice was heard..
Through the clouds of despair
Listen to me well
Heed and hear

Stamp the ground
Growl out loud
Roar and run
Touch the clouds

Indulge the passion
Shout and cry
Taste the tears
Live to defy
The norms
The rules
Do not whats right
But what is true...

Breathe
Exhale
Feel the pain
Rain and hail

Butterflies
Pixies
daffodils
Daisies

Ecstasy
Joy
Adrenaline
Find your voice

Taste Life!
Breathe it
Touch it
Feel it...
Let it run through your veins
Dont wait... dont hold back..
No regrets.

Euphoria is in the moments..
moments dont wait..
they pass through the fingers of time like sand.. refusing to be held.. forever lost...
Dont let it be too late
Make a memory.. little one..
That can carry you away..

She saw..
She heard
Loud and clear
And her wings unfurled :)

With a smile at the sun
She took off in a whirl
She winked at the clouds
And took on the world....

....... dont hold back... live!

Fars
Princess of the GemWorld

Dichotomy

Have you ever seen labyrinth?

The one thing it teaches you is that no one has any power over you. Your actions, your thoughts, your will.

No one controls u; what you do or your actions. U cant say they made me do it; the devil tempted me; it was God's will. You cant use peer pressure or divine intervention to push aside the blame onto other forces.  God's will extends to the situation u found yourself in or the test he puts you through. But what you do in that situation or test is on you. Free will! Man is the only creature on earth to be granted free will.. and with that stuff comes great responsibility!

I carry heaven & hell within me...
I am both the spawn of the devil & a child of the Almighty...
Like the fire... glowing a cool blue one instance & a raging red the next...
What shall prevail?...

The phases of the sun

Yesterday was an exceptional day. The sunrise was a masterpiece that the Almighty unveiled in beautiful degrees... rightfully concerned that the exceptional glory of that particular sunrise would be too much for the world at large to take in one fell dose.

Its started with the dim twilight giving way to the rosy hues of the first delicate streaks of dawn. The horizon slowly became imbued with the rust and gold glow of the first light of day...

The sun was lazy in its advance.. stretching its red gold rays in the sky.. painting a puff of creamy clouds a beautiful crimson heralding the day to come...

The clouds gave them selves up to be dyed into the glorious hues by the sun... changing every second to become the canvas for yet another wonder defying landscape.

After a sufficiently lazy beginning, the sun started gradually raising its sleepy head out from behind the clouds, hesitently releasing streaks of gold that shot up to the sky from behind the burj creating a mind blowing cascade of glitering gold sparkling into the sky.

All that and istecanat elaichi chai...  gotta love it !!

As they say a picture is worth a thousand words. Here are seven...

The Food lover blog

U gotta love tumblr 😊

The "Life is like a box of chocolates" blog

Lol... i went tumblring and found soo much profound stuff on chocolate and food that i have to share 😊😊😊

Wee musings

M: look mama that looks like the white house
F: you know what the white house is...??
M: yes its where michelle obama lives
F: YOU KNOW WHO MICHELLE OBAMA IS??
M: yeah she was in penguins of madagascar
F: ??!! Michelle obama was in the PENGUINS OF MADAGASCAR?!
M: yeah and in doc mcstuffins
F: * starting to sound like a broken record. Michelle obama was in DOC MCSTUFFINS?!?
M: yeah.. and she lives in the white house... you know some people say she lives in the Light house...
F: ?!?! Why?
M: * matter of factly.. because light and white rhyme mama..
F: of course they do little one 😊

Musings

Conversations in the clouds:
X: so what would you do if your friend started liking a guy you liked?
Y: do i love her? Does she have a piece?
X: yeah..
Y: i'd let her have him.
X: why?
Y: because i can survive alone.

X: ** expression of disbelief

X: What if she just uses him and dumps him?
Y: thats their lot in life then.
X: but why would u do that to him?
Y: the assumption is that i dont know how he feels about me. So it wont matter.

X: why ru so sacrificial?
Y: *smiles. Its not sacrifice. Its self preservation. Its lower risk to let her have him.

X: what if u liked me? Would u let me go? Sacrifice?
Y:*smiles wider... u dont belong to anyone. So technically it cant be a sacrifice. You can only sacrifice what you own... no one owns you.

X: humph..

The glory of God

Xxx

Boxes

😊 we live in boxes. Some of our own making and some of others... sometimes we segment ourselves and most time the world endeavors to do it for us. Either way is limiting and an exercise in futility. There IS no boxing the human spirit.

No matter how organized the human mind seeks to become, it will never be able to sort each piece of rhe universe into its relevant hole.

The Law of Averages

And into each life must come some strife....

And thus did the Almighty ordain the destinies of his people will be mapped. Through trial and tribulation... through the eye of the storm... the character shall be shaped.. the essence will be discovered... heaven and hell will be distributed.

I don't want strife. I don't want to be tested.. i don't want a trial by fire. I just want to be. I want to be left alone. I don't want to battle evil. I don't want to be a hero. I just want to be...

Why is that unacceptable? Why?

Its not necesary for EVERYONE  to have to prove their worth. There should be a place in heaven for those that just "didn't". Didn't do anything. No wrong... no right... neutral. Like switzerland. Neutrality counts!!

I just want to be.

Maybe in stasis. Just floating. Through the mass consciousness of this dimension... not really creating a ripple. Somewhere on the periphery... silently passing through..  leaving no recollection or footprint.

Nothing wrong with that. We can't ALL be memorable. I don't WANT to be memorable. Being forgotten is not a bad thing. It just means that no one owns a piece of you... no one will think of you... whether good or bad... no one will turn to you in need or joy. No one.

It will be a lonely, isolated numb existence. But..... there will.be  NO pain...  it'ĺl be a numb feeling. That may not be a bad thing.

Sigh i will take a nap....

Sunburst

20th Jan 2016
Wednesday

... the sun was bursting out from behind the cityscape heralding the conquering of the big blue by the glowing mass of white heat. The moon making a lone stand against the solar glory, refusing to go silently into the night.

Want

Somethings never change. The constant state of desire in the human condition... for wanting more.. wanting better... wanting things it can not have...

Its a constant. That's the main impetus behind the economic cycle. The fact that no matter where one stands, one still looks ahead.. far far ahead.

The same train of thought applies to nearly all other aspects of the human life. Which really begs the question... why isn't it ever enough???!!!

Why do people want a new model of a car every year with their salivary glands going into over drive over the curve of the bumper or the shade of the leather seating? Why do we always want to try out something new... someone new... what's the driving force behind the constant need for renewal embedded within the human psyche.. ?

Isn't life difficult enough? We search and scrounge around for light years to find balance in the force. We stumble and fall and learn and grow. We instill in ourselves certain ideals and values that we strive to live life by... yet at some stage or another... we question everything!

We can even debate whether white is truly white, and what is black exactly. We can convince ourselves that a little flex here and a little bend there is not noticeable in the greater scheme of things and really if it doesn't hurt anyone, does it really count?! We can talk ourselves into endeavors of mortal danger or of mortal stupidity. But the crux of it is, the human mind is capable of anything!

 It can be convinced about becoming unconvinced on ideals it had held for centuries within seconds of being shown a strong enough argument. It can be convinced to try heretofore forbidden things under the guise of "it doesn't really count if its just once". It can go bungee jumping! And that  I can certify to! Been there, done that! (dusting imaginary dust off of my shoulder with a self admiring smirk on my face:) )

But.. ooof.. seriously!? Where does it end? And why doesn't  it end?

Is there any point in time where we feel fully content and not frustrated with the world at large? Is there a future where we just simply lie back and not want more than what we have... where the attractions and temptations of the here and now stop appealing to our souls? Is nirvana achievable without *ahem*, *ahem* and rock'n'roll? :)

Cross roads.... only time will tell.

Princess of the GemWorld

The Nuance of Love

Tumbler is an amazing place to dig deep into the layers of a thought. If you ever thought you were alone in thinking up a gem of philosophy in the way only you can think it up.... Think again!
Someone has not only thought it.. they've also posted it on tumblr and gotten a million likes and shares to top it off.

So.. and i use the word "so" with a bit of temerity as i just learnt from the Gulf News Friday magazine that a certain dictionary has banned said word for being overused. Anyway, so... owing to the passage of time whereby we all repeal our ingrained thoughts on life to account for experience, life in general and well sheer lack of conviction... i went around searching random life defining concepts and realized that there is definitely merit in letting your mind float away on tumblr induced inertia for a while... you come out clearer having gone through multitudinal points of view and end up refreshing your own as well...

I searched up love. Probably the most searched four letter word in internet history. I thought there would be poetry and quotes.... and there were... but there was more. There were people's thoughts... their feeling.. their ephemeral concepts of what love is.. what it means and how it differs from other emotions we sometimes confuse it with.

So...   .. the master of expression Pablo Neruda had his own beautiful, soul shattering take on love :)

F Scott Fitzgerald must have been the champion of giving compliments going by the below :) :)

By the time you reach the below, the question has already been asked. But what is the true essence of Love and how do you know you love someone versus the more earthly emotion that humans are programmed genetically by nature to feel. 

The crux of it is.. Love is selfless... self fulfilling... where the happiness is derived from another's joy.. and lust is the opposite... inward, selfish... only thinking of one's fulfillment... 

One is a celestial emotion, imbued into the human heart through an act of God.. and the other is Nature striving to propagate itself... the survival instinct built into the human genome. 

Its fairly obvious which one should take precedence for a human life to be lived in a fulfilling manner. 

The quotes below both spoke to me... the first brought a smile to my life and the second just clarified something i felt i already believed. 

This!

And This! Somehow, i know this is me and countless other people. But to be fair once you push me to the limit, i TOTALLY let go and never look back. its been a hard lesson learnt. and never shall be forgotten. 

Princess of the GemWorld