nano

life is sad sometimes. the lights about to go any minute. my hubbys sleeping downstairs and my daughters sleeping upstairs.. my nano passed away on the 31st of May. my baby turned one on the 28th and nano passed away 3 days later. she was fine when i left. then she slipped and fractured her hip. the surgery was very well done but then they gave her a pain killer which reacted with her, her blood pressure dropped and her heart came to a standstill. i didnt realize how much it hurt until i got back and walked in to her room and realized she wasnt lying on her bed anymore. i broke down and cried and cried and cried. before i'd left i had gone to her room. she'd been lying in bed and i told her i was going to see khala.. she asked me how long... i said 3 weeks.. my heart was feeling funny.. i'd never been away for so long in the recent past. nano would always ask when ever i was leaving the house "wapas kab aaye gi?" and "kahan jaa rahi hai? kyun jaa rahi hai :) reh ja" :) my hubby would always smile cause she always looked for him when she used to say "reh ja" :) this time she heard 3 weeks and she just said "khair nal ja, khair nal aa"... i have a feeling she had a feeling... ami had already had nana and abu come in her dreams a month back and she had a deep sense of foreboding.. but when it happened it was so quick. so sudden.. we didnt have time to think... i am so thankful that Allah Mian made sure she was completely healthy and walking around and in full control of all her faculties down to her last days. she wouldnt have liked it otherwise. my nani was adorable. she used to bang the glass on the table when she wanted more Diet 7up.. she used to purposely refuse to talk and instead point at things on the dining table forcing you to play a guessing game :) we used to strike back and say "no you say it and then we'll pass it :) baatein karein hum say" so she used to retort "kya baatein karoun.. mein koi tauta (parrot) houn".. she constantly referred to my daughter in the masculine :) saying "yeh kya kar raha hai.. yeh to mota hai mota :)" in a sing song voice.. and every time we used to correct her she used to say "mujhay pata hai" in an angry tone :).. when i was small.. she used to comb & brush my hair till it shone and then braid it into two plaits with the loveliest of ribbons that she had collected for so long.. she made the best pulao.. finger lickin good.. the best chicken qorma.. the best suji ka halwa.. she made the best everything... and her aaloo gosht was to die for.. she was the worlds best cook.. now my mum is the worlds best cook.. she raised 5 children.. not the easiest bunch of kids to raise :) according to the stories they have told us themselves of their childhood and the mischiefs they used to get upto. but she was always a force to be reckoned with.. she had dreams about the future that were as clear as day.. once she dreamt the car had been stolen.. nana & the family had been on a tour and they had the car stolen that day :) they found it by nightfall or the next day.. once after getting married she dreamt she was shaking hands with the king .. her brothers made lots of fun of her.. :) a while later nana was sent to England by the army and they were invited to a dinner where she shook hands with the King of England.. She saved that invitation and sent it to her brothers later :) one day when she was older and living with us post nana's passing away, she woke up in the morning and said "someone's passed away".. we were very scared because one of our family's elders had been in the hospital, but we called and they were fine.. just a few hours later we got news that one of my chachijans had completely unexpectedly passed away.. it was the most shockingly sad event... i think nano had a direct line of communication to Allah mian.. May Allah keep her safe in Heaven and allow nana and nani to be together in heaven in a lovely home and allow us all to find places close to our loved ones once we pass into the everafter.. inshAllah... Princess of the GemWorld ******************************************************************************************** Fariha's Thoughts of the Day: GoogleName: Fariha GemWorld Blogspot: http://gemworld.blogspot.com MSN Space: http://gemworldfars.spaces.live.com/