my father passed away on this day of eid-e-milad-un-nabi... he went very peacefully being fully alert a few minutes before and then slowly going to sleep until he stopped breathing...
since his diagnosis on mar 16th, there wasnt a day when he complained of pain. he just got weak day by day but there was no pain.
i am happy he went as peacefully as he did. i am happy he went on a day as blessed as the birth & dead of our Holy Prophet (PBUH). i recall yesterday thinking what day Allah had chosen for Abus passing because i knew he was going.. and i didnt realize what day it was going to be today. i racked my brains for a blessed day or a significant day.. my anniversary or nanas barsi on may 18th.. on the way home from the hospital i suddenly noticed the green lights everywhere.. and when i got home at midnight my dadi jan asked me if i knew it was eid-e-milad-un-nabi and my heart just sank.. then i thought its ok.. the nights nearly over and Abu is fine..
i guess i forgot the islamic day doesnt end till dusk the next day.
so that was that.. abu went instructing me not to cry, to take care of ami, to turn up the volume on the hospital tv and put on national geographic.
he went very peacefully.. but i still need him and now i dont know what to do.
i am thankful to Allah for granting him such a peaceful passing and allowing him to meet all his family in pindi and lahore just a few days before his death.. i dont like Allah mian for taking him away from me right now and i dont know how to get over that anger..
May Allah mian grant abu a place in heaven and may he allow me to meet him once im there...
Princess of the GemWorld
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